i dun get the questions
how do i do this well?
omg.
HELP?
how do i do this well?
omg.
HELP?
felicia foo, this is for you.
rmmbr the night Amanda and I scolded u at the corridor? then we refused to talk for a month?
yes sis,
i remember.
and it hurt so very bad.
all i could think all the time was,
this is super stupid.
why aren't we talking over a silly thing like this?
BUT HEY!
guess what?
things are okay now.
its better than okay :)
when things are hard,
it seems like tomorrow will never come.
you inspire me sis.
all through those layers around you,
i'm glad you let me through.
remember,
you are a STRONG girl,
with so much to offer to the world.
hold on and push through.
you will make an amazing gynecologist (dunno how to spell)
you are a special individual.
stay you and be strong!
good luck!
yes sis,
i remember.
and it hurt so very bad.
all i could think all the time was,
this is super stupid.
why aren't we talking over a silly thing like this?
BUT HEY!
guess what?
things are okay now.
its better than okay :)
when things are hard,
it seems like tomorrow will never come.
you inspire me sis.
all through those layers around you,
i'm glad you let me through.
remember,
you are a STRONG girl,
with so much to offer to the world.
hold on and push through.
you will make an amazing gynecologist (dunno how to spell)
you are a special individual.
stay you and be strong!
good luck!
the world ain't pretty all the time.
it is ugly twisted and brutal at times.
it is filled with sorrow and bitterness
why let them rule?
look at the other miracles in life. fill your walls and scrapbooks with happy pictures.
it is ugly twisted and brutal at times.
it is filled with sorrow and bitterness
why let them rule?
look at the other miracles in life. fill your walls and scrapbooks with happy pictures.
spend time with people that mean the world to you,
because they are your world.
love!laugh! sing! hug! be happy! go crazy!
life's too short to be predictable.
live every moment like it's your last..
listen to happy music.
sing along,spread the joy.
tell someone they are special and loved.
sing along,spread the joy.
tell someone they are special and loved.
remember that at every end of a tunnel,
light awaits.
at every end of a thunderstorm,
a rainbow prevails.
things will be okay,
because He will make sure it does.
Just believe :)
light awaits.
at every end of a thunderstorm,
a rainbow prevails.
things will be okay,
because He will make sure it does.
Just believe :)
have a wonderful day!
alright,
now i officially have a favourite team member.
his name?
derek morgan.
why?
cause he thinks every woman is special and makes sure she knows it :)
x0x0.
now i officially have a favourite team member.
his name?
derek morgan.
why?
cause he thinks every woman is special and makes sure she knows it :)
- Morgan: [to Mona, a homeless woman] Be careful, you hear me? This world needs all of its beautiful ladies, and that means you, too, momma.
- [Mona smiles and walks away]
- Emily: You’re a good guy.
- Morgan: Ya think?
- Emily: Yeah, you make the people around you feel good.
x0x0.
i am going to start full speed from now on.
good friends.
interesting subjects.
pps and criminal minds.
plans of "next sem" with shien lin,liza and yee sin.
sufficient work to keep me on my toes.
interesting tutorials with mr azizie.
looks like this is going to be a good semester :)
i'm gonna miss it when it ends.
good friends.
interesting subjects.
pps and criminal minds.
plans of "next sem" with shien lin,liza and yee sin.
sufficient work to keep me on my toes.
interesting tutorials with mr azizie.
looks like this is going to be a good semester :)
i'm gonna miss it when it ends.
i am currently having this love hate relationship with criminal minds.
hate it cause it freaks me out and make me lose hope in humans ever being human.
love it because this brilliant and the team makes me feel so comfortable :)
favourite characters?
oh,
all of them.
jason gideon
spencer reid
derek morgan
penolope garcia
aaron hotchner
jennifer jareau
go team! :D
i actually reward myself with episodes of this show now.
complete this assignment and i get 1 episode
study that chapter and i earn another one.
okay,8 o'clock class.
nights!
hate it cause it freaks me out and make me lose hope in humans ever being human.
love it because this brilliant and the team makes me feel so comfortable :)
favourite characters?
oh,
all of them.
jason gideon
spencer reid
derek morgan
penolope garcia
aaron hotchner
jennifer jareau
go team! :D
i actually reward myself with episodes of this show now.
complete this assignment and i get 1 episode
study that chapter and i earn another one.
okay,8 o'clock class.
nights!
estatic :)
and so today was an awesome day.
it started at about 9.30 in the morning and ended at 12 midnight.
somewhat like a cinderella fairy tale.
minus the pumpkin and mice.
i was happy.
i had a whole day out.
wasted a whole day out.
but it was worth every second.
because i'm with awesome people whom i love.
met new awesome people whom i fell in love with :D
haha,
yeah there was a CUTE violin player,
whom apparently is married T.T
not my luck but ah,
a girl can always dream :)
i'd love to go through it in detail,
but somethings are meant to reside in the heart....
ok fine,that was just an excuse for being lazy to type it out in detail.
but to miss Syazeleen Mustafa,
thanks for making it happen k leen.
it was an awesome awesome day.
tonight i sleep a happy girl :D
it started at about 9.30 in the morning and ended at 12 midnight.
somewhat like a cinderella fairy tale.
minus the pumpkin and mice.
i was happy.
i had a whole day out.
wasted a whole day out.
but it was worth every second.
because i'm with awesome people whom i love.
met new awesome people whom i fell in love with :D
haha,
yeah there was a CUTE violin player,
whom apparently is married T.T
not my luck but ah,
a girl can always dream :)
i'd love to go through it in detail,
but somethings are meant to reside in the heart....
ok fine,that was just an excuse for being lazy to type it out in detail.
but to miss Syazeleen Mustafa,
thanks for making it happen k leen.
it was an awesome awesome day.
tonight i sleep a happy girl :D
i do have a reason why i don't want to practice criminal law,
at least not if i can help it.
i've been watching criminal minds when it hit me.
it because i cannot bear living in a world where i am constantly surrounded by horrible crime committed by criminals.
that's why i held off second thoughts of studying forenic science.
Because i than had to be the voice of those who are gone.
and reveal every single detail of the horror they went through.
and i don't think i am mentally strong enough to do that.
God created man out of love to love,
why choose to hurt?
at least not if i can help it.
i've been watching criminal minds when it hit me.
it because i cannot bear living in a world where i am constantly surrounded by horrible crime committed by criminals.
that's why i held off second thoughts of studying forenic science.
Because i than had to be the voice of those who are gone.
and reveal every single detail of the horror they went through.
and i don't think i am mentally strong enough to do that.
God created man out of love to love,
why choose to hurt?
one of my teachers once said to me,
once is a coincidence.
twice,you're just lucky.
three times, that means u're good.
must not be over confident.
must start working hard again.
must do well.
must not give up on dreams.
once is nothing,
simply nothing.
make it three,than you can be proud of yourself.
love,
me :)
eye candy ;)
ed westwick @ chuck bass.
and the picture above is chuck and blair
the sweetest couple ever. :)
i have a few cravings.
an air conditioned bedroom.ice cream.chocolate.cakes.a thinner me.the drive to study.a chat with nadia elena & sara salim.a long chat with nadia elena & sara salim.dance class,ballet and jazz to be exact.music studio.greasy french fries.a day out.cold ice cream soda.black forest cake.white chocolate macademia.pizza.a nice,loyal,chuck bass-sy boyfriend.christmas.presents.surprises.a 50 metres swimming pool.a cooler weather.
an air conditioned bedroom.ice cream.chocolate.cakes.a thinner me.the drive to study.a chat with nadia elena & sara salim.a long chat with nadia elena & sara salim.dance class,ballet and jazz to be exact.music studio.greasy french fries.a day out.cold ice cream soda.black forest cake.white chocolate macademia.pizza.a nice,loyal,chuck bass-sy boyfriend.christmas.presents.surprises.a 50 metres swimming pool.a cooler weather.
its 3.39 and i'm still not in bed.
phone on silent charging.
me writing lists,thinking and staring at the rain.
this is the whole thinktoomuchcan'tsleepbleh feeling again.
omg!
i am gonna force myself NOT to fall asleep anytime during the day tomorrow,
no matter HOW ugly or tired i'm gonna be.
i do NOT like sleepless nights.
help
phone on silent charging.
me writing lists,thinking and staring at the rain.
this is the whole thinktoomuchcan'tsleepbleh feeling again.
omg!
i am gonna force myself NOT to fall asleep anytime during the day tomorrow,
no matter HOW ugly or tired i'm gonna be.
i do NOT like sleepless nights.
help
sometimes i tell myself,
erase the bitterness Jess,
and carry on living.
bring only the happy things in life.
and than i realized,
life is like a piano,white keys are happy times,
while black keys are dark ones,
both keys need to be played together to create beautiful music
so i sort of figured out.
each part of your life is like written text in a book.
in permanent marker.
you can't erase it,you would not even if you could.
because that is what makes us who we are today.
we cannot rewrite the past chapters,
but we can always start a new one :)
erase the bitterness Jess,
and carry on living.
bring only the happy things in life.
and than i realized,
life is like a piano,white keys are happy times,
while black keys are dark ones,
both keys need to be played together to create beautiful music
so i sort of figured out.
each part of your life is like written text in a book.
in permanent marker.
you can't erase it,you would not even if you could.
because that is what makes us who we are today.
we cannot rewrite the past chapters,
but we can always start a new one :)
you can do it too..
i was watching the finale of cycle 14 of america's next top model,
and something the winner Krista said,
hit me.
i do not mean to gloat or be over proud of my 4 flat,
but it made me cry.
it has been months and moths of pent up frustration,
or perhaps years since i was anywhere near the top ten let alone the top 3.
i took one look at the computer screen,
logged in and out excatly 3 times,
and i snapped.
literally fat tears rolling down my cheeks before i could compose myself to call my parents.
finally finally finally,
i can look in the mirror,
look at that girl in the reflection and say,
hey! i'm proud of you.i'm proud of me
what i'm trying to get across to the readers,
whether its my friends,seniors,juniors or some random stranger that stumbles upon this entry,
you can do it too.
when you doubt yourself,
when you feel like you're good enough,
when you feel like there's always someone that's better than you,
when you look life straight in the eyes and say "i don't like you right now",
remember,
you can do it too.
you can,
have faith and
May God bless :)
and something the winner Krista said,
hit me.
i do not mean to gloat or be over proud of my 4 flat,
but it made me cry.
it has been months and moths of pent up frustration,
or perhaps years since i was anywhere near the top ten let alone the top 3.
i took one look at the computer screen,
logged in and out excatly 3 times,
and i snapped.
literally fat tears rolling down my cheeks before i could compose myself to call my parents.
finally finally finally,
i can look in the mirror,
look at that girl in the reflection and say,
hey! i'm proud of you.i'm proud of me
what i'm trying to get across to the readers,
whether its my friends,seniors,juniors or some random stranger that stumbles upon this entry,
you can do it too.
when you doubt yourself,
when you feel like you're good enough,
when you feel like there's always someone that's better than you,
when you look life straight in the eyes and say "i don't like you right now",
remember,
you can do it too.
you can,
have faith and
May God bless :)
drama overload.
haha,too much gossip girl?
for some reason i have always tried to make myself impartial from all the movies i see,
and all the books i read.
especially when it balls down to prince charming with a bottomless pocket.
cause when i watch them,
i tne d to get this overwhelming urge to rush God and make Him give me what i want.
When i don't get it,
i get impatient and lal upset.
It's not fair towards Him and it isn't towards myself.
So,
i guess i'm planning to take a break from Gossip Girl,
and get back to reality maybe?..
on another note,
God really does give us what we want,eventually.
I'm so happy and thankful for my results.
really really really am :)
I am now blessed with the motivation and eagerness to rush forward for this semester.
Which will be quite a handful but i'm sure thing will work out.
I have to stay level headed and work hard once again.
Expect realistically and avoid disappointment :)
haha,too much gossip girl?
for some reason i have always tried to make myself impartial from all the movies i see,
and all the books i read.
especially when it balls down to prince charming with a bottomless pocket.
cause when i watch them,
i tne d to get this overwhelming urge to rush God and make Him give me what i want.
When i don't get it,
i get impatient and lal upset.
It's not fair towards Him and it isn't towards myself.
So,
i guess i'm planning to take a break from Gossip Girl,
and get back to reality maybe?..
on another note,
God really does give us what we want,eventually.
I'm so happy and thankful for my results.
really really really am :)
I am now blessed with the motivation and eagerness to rush forward for this semester.
Which will be quite a handful but i'm sure thing will work out.
I have to stay level headed and work hard once again.
Expect realistically and avoid disappointment :)
so,
semester 2 has brought forth a sorta craze of marathon-ing something.
my friends are marathon-ing gossip girl,vampire diaries, talk shows and even dragon ball.
and i thought i was set on marathon-ing on books.
i miss reading,
and now that i have the time,
i set myself towards that direction.
and on an even more matured path of non fictional books.
haha.
but tonight i took a detour and ended up watching america's next top model.
i made it through 6 episodes and decided to call it a night.
lesson learnt?
personality is the key.
and frankly,
i am a little worried about that.
i have never been ultra confident of my personality.
somehow,somewhere in kys,
i sorta stumbled and was put on a search to gain my personality.
of what makes me,me.
andto be honest,
i was confused.
form one was filled with insecurity by y incompetency in sports,those seniors were hell.
form two was a steadier ground,
form 3 was more of a rocky sea,happy to get that cc post,
form 4 was an emotional terror and wreck.
form 5 was torn between wanting so badly for time to move faster and slower at the same time.
being in kys was both a blessing and a curse.
blessing for meeting those awesome awesome fantastic inspiring people.
people who made me see that it more than just getting a degree,its about acing it every step of the way.
that was also a curse,
because we became this close minded people.
B was deemed as a failure.
it errected walls of insecurity into every one of our hearts that seemed almost impossible to shatter.
i meet K ummi and she showed me the world was beyond that.
but frankly,
after i failed to attain any scholarship at all,
it just,it was disappointment big time.
my world came crashing down.
i had no strength no faith to meet my friends or teachers or juniors.
it was a wake up call from Jesus.
He was telling me i can't be on top all the time.
He was telling me its time to get up and buid it from zero again.
start from scratch.
i have to do this,
i just have to.
I need to build my personality and let it shine through.
I am not the most beautiful girl,yet i'm not ugly.
And i am blessed with brains.
Come one Jessy,
you have to nail it.
YOU HAVE NO OTHER OPTION.
semester 2 has brought forth a sorta craze of marathon-ing something.
my friends are marathon-ing gossip girl,vampire diaries, talk shows and even dragon ball.
and i thought i was set on marathon-ing on books.
i miss reading,
and now that i have the time,
i set myself towards that direction.
and on an even more matured path of non fictional books.
haha.
but tonight i took a detour and ended up watching america's next top model.
i made it through 6 episodes and decided to call it a night.
lesson learnt?
personality is the key.
and frankly,
i am a little worried about that.
i have never been ultra confident of my personality.
somehow,somewhere in kys,
i sorta stumbled and was put on a search to gain my personality.
of what makes me,me.
andto be honest,
i was confused.
form one was filled with insecurity by y incompetency in sports,those seniors were hell.
form two was a steadier ground,
form 3 was more of a rocky sea,happy to get that cc post,
form 4 was an emotional terror and wreck.
form 5 was torn between wanting so badly for time to move faster and slower at the same time.
being in kys was both a blessing and a curse.
blessing for meeting those awesome awesome fantastic inspiring people.
people who made me see that it more than just getting a degree,its about acing it every step of the way.
that was also a curse,
because we became this close minded people.
B was deemed as a failure.
it errected walls of insecurity into every one of our hearts that seemed almost impossible to shatter.
i meet K ummi and she showed me the world was beyond that.
but frankly,
after i failed to attain any scholarship at all,
it just,it was disappointment big time.
my world came crashing down.
i had no strength no faith to meet my friends or teachers or juniors.
it was a wake up call from Jesus.
He was telling me i can't be on top all the time.
He was telling me its time to get up and buid it from zero again.
start from scratch.
i have to do this,
i just have to.
I need to build my personality and let it shine through.
I am not the most beautiful girl,yet i'm not ugly.
And i am blessed with brains.
Come one Jessy,
you have to nail it.
YOU HAVE NO OTHER OPTION.
Happy endings
Do you believe in them?
Do you have faith that it will happen?
Do you have the courage to move on even when you think it won't?
I trust in them,
I have faith in them,
I seek comfort in them.
But they don't happen easily,
You have to fight the war,
Endure the tears and blood and pain.
He will give me what I want and need and even more.
I just have to wait.
And be a good girl in the mean time.
Abstinence from sex till marriage sounds old fashioned to you?
Well, that's what I intend to do.
Cause my husband deserves the best and that only.
How do you expect one to give you his best,
when you can't do the same for him?
It does not work that way remember?
He'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
He won't call me queen just because he knows I like being a princess better.
He will tell me I'm beautiful instead of hot cause he knows me.
He'll hug me tight in silence because he knows when I'm at a loss for words.
He'll see me through my tantrums and tears and laughter.
He'll see right through my heart.
Because I'll do the very same for him.
This is what Daddy told me.
He asked me to be patient because He knows best.
He loves me and does not want to see me sad.
He knows that when I give,I hold nothing back.
He knows,
and I'll wait because I trust Him J
speaking of memories...
i have an excellent one..
for things that i want to remember,
at my own will of course.
and most of these things are happy memories,
memories that i treasure and intend not to forget.
but there are also those which has made me extremely upset,angry,hurt or scared.
memories to me are mostly controlled by what i'd imagine as a switch.
i'd on it when i like and off them when i don't.
but certain memories don't work that way,
they come back to haunt whether i like it or not.
anyway,
i was at my aunts house and my cousins were playing with a lego set which used to belong to me and my little brother,
and apparently,
the both of us ain't that little anymore.
but we sat down on the bed and joined them anyway.
and it was fun,extremely fun :)
i am one of those lucky girls,
who doesn't look at other families and wish i were a part of them.
i look at my family and i know that's right where i belong.
talking to my dad about economics,politics and faith and struggling to understand,
knowing he wouldn't mind if i asked a million questions.
watching movies online with my mum,
falling asleep on the chair as she waits for it to load,
teasing and having fun ith my brother,
feeling as we were 5 again...
i am one lucky girl,
and i'm thankful for that :)
have a nice week folks.
for things that i want to remember,
at my own will of course.
and most of these things are happy memories,
memories that i treasure and intend not to forget.
but there are also those which has made me extremely upset,angry,hurt or scared.
memories to me are mostly controlled by what i'd imagine as a switch.
i'd on it when i like and off them when i don't.
but certain memories don't work that way,
they come back to haunt whether i like it or not.
anyway,
i was at my aunts house and my cousins were playing with a lego set which used to belong to me and my little brother,
and apparently,
the both of us ain't that little anymore.
but we sat down on the bed and joined them anyway.
and it was fun,extremely fun :)
i am one of those lucky girls,
who doesn't look at other families and wish i were a part of them.
i look at my family and i know that's right where i belong.
talking to my dad about economics,politics and faith and struggling to understand,
knowing he wouldn't mind if i asked a million questions.
watching movies online with my mum,
falling asleep on the chair as she waits for it to load,
teasing and having fun ith my brother,
feeling as we were 5 again...
i am one lucky girl,
and i'm thankful for that :)
have a nice week folks.
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