The taiwan trip does come with a huge price.

Missing one midterm during the trip.

Having one Midterm right after i come back.

Missing one presentation during too!

Ah,

pressure is on!

so many things to dooooo! how lah!

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on another note,

3 days to go my dearies!

I hope you guys are ready as ever!

*Exam mode on*

hehe :D

"Here's to you, hoping that someday, you'll realize that I really did care."

the thing about you and me.i realize our radars do not always match.except for the last few months in 2009.

but i'll try my best.and hope you do too.i always fight for what i know is worth it,

but the thing is kid,

i cannot fight forever.

so,

tomorrow will be my first ever debate tournament.

i can feel those butterflies in my stomach =S

all i wanna do is to give it my best,

and emerge out of it wiser.

ah,the fear of the unknown.

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on a lighter note,

the drama team went out for our long over due lunch together.

it was good to be out with them again,

just eating and laughing with no worries.

and!

we had a great photo session.

here are a few of my favs.

edited by adrianleeyungkhin of course :)

legs and pretty lighting :)

friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient,

it about being there when it's not.

sometimes,we just need to look away from the ugly and savor the beauty of life.

it's okay to be who we Asians really are ;)

no matter how sad you are, just remember happiness is not far away ;)

the smiles, the surprises, the sad moments and moments that leave you clueless,

that's what life is made of.

signing off ppl,

do pray for me!

have a great weekend

xx

like seriously,

this HAS to be worth it one day.

omg the amount of facts.

the NAMES of the parties.

why can't people have short and decent names?

like Harry Potter or I DUNNO, Brad Pitt or something.

Seriously,

don't these parents pity their kids trying to learn their own name?

and in exams,

omaigosh.

u know when we have to write our names on every piece of paper?

kesian.

haha,

enuff with the ranting,

back to contract.

do pray for me people.

p/s : ugh! i'm missing out on KLOC debate fun ='(

today's debate practice has been rewarding.

it's one step closer to being better,

and one step away form being bad at it.

i managed a 4 and the half minutes speech on rebuttals and one point alone.

and i wasn't through with my point.

although BC said that it was a time management problem (which it was)

it felt good to be short of time instead of being in excess of it :D

baby steps jess,baby steps. :)

on another note,

i'm just exhausted.

i do not want to be the 5 minute girl.

i wanna be able to to fill up my 7 minutes,

and be good at it.

Lord,

please grant me the courage to move on,

even when it all seems bleak and dark.

Amen.

so...

there's an arisz reunion this weekend.

many can't make it =(

and i do have a contracts test on monday.

dunno whats up with me but have been slacking a lot lately.

i'm kinda excited yet freaked out by the fact that there's debate tomorrow night.

oh well,

do one thing a day that scares you.

i guess that's the thing i have to do. :)

oh well,

that is all i guess.

among other things.

hey,

click on the adverts will ya?

thx,

much love.

mixed

oh well,

there was my first debate.

it was terrible i suppose.

I knew close to nothing about the motion.

I was the whip so i had nothing prepared before hand.

And when everyone started speaking,

I did not know what were the points i was supposed to argue.

And even after i identified them, i did not know how to argue it.

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but on the other hand,

i was proud that i tried.

Spence told me i spoke for 5 minutes.

haha!

seniors were encouraging,

i just need to have faith and keep going.

if it's not hard,

the rewards won't be good.

It's about time i get out of my comfort zone.

growth is painful but necessary.

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Presentation tomorrow,

Midterms on thursday and friday.

Assignments lined up.

God bless me.

Enlightenment

So i went for debate practice today,

and it managed to pull me ryt out of my bad mood :)

wheeee~

although there was bad news waiting for me right after.

*to esin and adrian, you guys are AWESOME people and i heart you with all my heart. things will be better,i promise. till then, you have me and shawn to make attempts at making you ppl smile. hugs!*

anyway,

we were given five minutes to come up with a ONE minute speech based on a word.

My word was ENLIGHTENMENT.

Frankly, that word sounded sooooo deep that i wasn't even sure what i should talk about.

but basically, this is a rough idea of my speech.

Hi :)

The word assigned to me tonight is enlightenment.

To me, this means is the discovery of truth.

When the fog clears up and the veil is lifted, you see the clear picture of what reality really is.

Enlightenment is very vital and essential in our lives.

It is something that every individual seeks for,

although most of us do not even realize it.

Only through the discovery of truth, that one can truly live.

I relate to enlightenment in two levels.

On a basic everyday level, enlightenment can mean the comprehension of a simple fact.

For example, when you finally understand what your lecturer said, it is a form of enlightenment.

On a more philosophical and higher level, enlightenment is the true understanding of life.

Before we can achieve this, we have to understand the world around us.

But before we get there, we need to understand ourselves.

And to understand ourselves,

We need to attain inner peace.

How do we do that?

It is by believing that we have the right to have opinions and that it is our right to be heard.

We need to understand that each individual is unique and we do not need to change that.

Once we finally grasp that concept,

we would understand ourselves and then understand the world around us.

Enlightenment of life,is when we realize there is more to the world then material wealth and physical pleasure.

Thank you. =)

hehe, just felt like sharing it.

cheers people,

here's to a better tomorrow.

goals.

and its been awhile since i've actually trully set a goal for myself.

infact,i've been so insecure of my abilities for the past few years that i've ever dared to set up a goal for myself.

as of today,

i have 3 targets to hit.

1) first class for sem 1 of degree

2) national novice debate.

3) weight control.

frankly,

it seems kinda out of my reach.

but i'll try.

and if people laugh at me if i fail,

i'll just walk with my head held high.

cause i fought.

and that's all that matters.

and once again,it hits me.when i'm unaware,when i'm off guard.when i didn;t even know it could hurt me.

it strikes again.

today is like the last day of this debate competition.

and so far,it has been great =)

let's just say i'm a very lucky girl.

in the first round, i din have to adjudicate, so i got to watch BC,Emax and D debate =)

in the the second round, i adjudicated the top room with Dr Omer as my Chief Adj.

in the third round, i got thrown into being the Chair.

and was still the chair for rounds 4 and 5.

i'm just really blessed and thankful =)

i'd love to update more but i'll save it for later.

loves.

so,

i am leaving tonight for my first ever DEBATE TOURNAMENT!

haha,

hold your horses people,

i am merely going as an observer.

but the cool thing is,

i get to watch the best team in MMU debate.

and that includes our trainer,BC!

he's as close to a debate God as we can ever ask for =/

so yeah :)

teehee!

on a totally unrelated note,

the pressure is mounting.

assignments are not as easy as they were in foundation.

tutorials are just this never ending stream =/

and the matter we have to absorb is well,

tough.

bleh,

pray hard people.

we will make it!

loves.