Postivity.

Well, everyone is stressed out with finals.

Everyone else is stressed out over something else.

What a very stressed out world we live.

So,

without too many words,

some of my favourite pictures from tumblr.

Love for roses relived,

and some other random stuff.

POSITIVITY! :)

When life brings you to your knees,

do you realize that you are in the perfect position to pray?

Well, 

I'm currently in that time of a semester.

Where the assignment and tutorials keep on rolling in.

Endlessly.

And the degree of difficulty seems like too much to bear.

The research it demands.

The interviews that are pending.

The wait for people to reply,

All the while pleading that they would take the time to read the email.

The worries about things that are so non-existent

The drama presentation yet to come.

How?

So much to think about.

How to write the script?

How to make these people work?

How do i make them care?

And the midterms.

Taiwan is like my lifelong dream.

To actually go overseas, heavily sponsored.

But to think of the amount of things waiting for me to come back to.

Urgh.

So this is the time of the semester.

Just like the time i was worried about the business project.

And the English drama presentation.

And Madam Maizatul's presentation.

This time,

once again i'm driven to my knees with worry.

About the tenant issue disturbing my dad.

About mama's blood pressure.

About ah jo's stress for the exams.

and all the assignments and worry about marks.

with certain lecturers being scary.

Once again i find myself in the perfect position to pray.

And once again, 

The Lord has the same reply.

" All will be well My Child. Believe that i am the Maker of Miracles. Believe that I can do the Impossible. You do your part and leave the difficult stuff to me. Pray and Believe. Rest in the faith that I will make things right"

And once again i'm leaving it into his Hands.

Pray people.

It has never failed.

it gets harder when people expects it to be easy for you.
it's harder because sometimes people assume your grades falls from the sky right onto your result transcript.
it's not easy.
it's never easy.
studying for me is as hard and blood dripping and exhausting for me as it is for you.
it was never easy.
i keep going not because i've had it easy.
i keep going because it's gonna be worth it one day.
so don't,
don't look at me and tell me i've had it easy.
that's just bullshit.

tired.

really tired.

just wanna close my eyes and make it all go away.

i'm going home this week,

all will be well.

i will survive this.

i have this ability to get panic attacks over the smallest things during exams.
one moment i feel ready for the papers,
than a call,or an sms, or something i read or something someone says triggers my dam of emotions and
*gabush!*
the whole world comes crashing down.
when in reality,
if i take a step back,
it really is still intact.
i think i need to see a shrink.
or just get myself drowned into loud music.
very loud music.

i is want a pikachu :)

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finals has gotten to me ==

today is like the best and worst day of the week.
great because i was lucky enough to get home early.
worst because my bag was missing when i got down from the bus :(

I.AM.JUST.SO.TIRED. :(
I know i'm not supposed to complain but this is the only place i can do so without
worrying my parents,
further stressing up my friends.
omg.

nothing is ever too hard,
or too easy.
everything happens for a reason.
everything has to be done for a reason.
we just have to look at it from a different light,
a different perspective.
it'll be worth it.

dear heart,
what tricks are you trying to pull off this time?

so,
im actually camping out at the law library until eleven.
or planning to do so at least.
amazing yeah.
need.to.get.this.done.
loads of work still waiting
*pengsan*

p/s: as always, blogging in between to keep me going :D

my brain won't let me sleep
hyper.
NOOOOO!!

i forgot how satisfying a good round of exercise can feel.
cheers to the most natural form of stress reliever.
here's to a better tomorrow

when you're scared and worried,

color gives you hope..

yet to finish up with the argument!
8 pages to go( at least)..
come on jessy,
keep on writng,
keep on blogging.
than u get to sleep
and watch criminal minds :)

so,
'm going to spend the entire night finishing up the 15 - 20 page argument.
i'm not in the best of my moods.
i do not feel like talking much.
sorry pa and ma for the lousy skype session just now.
silly connection wasn't working
i m feeling hungry for no reason.
i'm tired of worrying about the video.
for now, i just want to be able to present something.
and later on i might regret that it is not the best i can do.
but heck, that video isn't my responsibility.
it'll be okay,right?

p/s im gonna post random picture posts with random captions.bear with it.

im just so darn tired of needing to worry about other people's part when we work as a group.is it my problem with trust? or the fact that you screwed up with our last video that i am damn worried? its due on monday and you think tht finishing it up by saturday is not urgent.if only i had your mindset.

i just feel so very messed up.
carolling is supposed to make me feel estatic.
why the diff tonyt?
info overload.

oh my goodness,
this is SO confusing :(

i am currently having this love hate relationship with criminal minds.
hate it cause it freaks me out and make me lose hope in humans ever being human.
love it because this brilliant and the team makes me feel so comfortable :)

favourite characters?
oh,
all of them.

jason gideon
spencer reid
derek morgan
penolope garcia
aaron hotchner
jennifer jareau

go team! :D

i actually reward myself with episodes of this show now.
complete this assignment and i get 1 episode
study that chapter and i earn another one.

okay,8 o'clock class.
nights!