find a man who call you beautiful instead of hot,
a man who would be with his buddies but with you on his mind..
find the guy who thinks you look awesome in your sweats..
who think you are perfect on your bad hair days..
find a man who would kiss you to silence your sobs..
a guy who would write you love letters instead of buying you cards..
for the man who is contented just to cuddle and have you nearby,
look for the man who knows not only the pleasure of lovemaking,
but strong enough to be by your side while you endure the pain of childbirth..
find the guy who enters a room full of people,
yet his eyes sees only you..
find the man who wants to be your husband instead of just a fling..
find the man discovers the pain in your eyes,
when others see the smile on thy lips..
find the man who looks into your eyes,
and sees you heart =)

perfection or perfect imperfection?

a note from facebook i wrote some time ago =)

i dun know wuts up wif me..it already 1.30am..can't sleep..n 4 sum reas0n feelin very jiwang..=) haha..a perfect guy?

hurm..lets see..the list will g0 on and on..
cash..
career..
g0od lo0king..
r0mantic..
intelligent..
athletic..
g0od voice..
go0d sense of humor..
beautiful eyes..
amazing smile..
musician..
caring..
loving..
macho..
str0ng..
pr0tective..
tall..
fair..perfect!!=)

but than again...

i d0n't need him t0 be perfectly hands0me..
girls may n0t leave me al0ne with him..
i d0n't need him to be insanely rich..
only than will we learn t0 work 4 what we want..
i d0n't need him t0 be utterly in c0ntrol..
i need 2 see him cry..be jeal0us and l0se c0ntr0l at times..
0nly than would i be reminded..he is 0nly human..
i d0n't need him to be t0o protective all the time..
0nly than will i learn h0w to live a decent life..
i d0 n0t need him to think abt me & only me all the time..
i need him 2 be rati0nal..2 b able 2 concentrate..2 make decisi0ns when im ar0und..
0nly than will i kn0w i am a part 0f him..s0 natural that it d0esn't need c0nsci0us eff0rts..
i d0n't need him t0 say i l0ve you all the time..
but through his acti0ns will i feel it..
i d0n't want him 2 put up with all my tantrums..
i want him 2 be angry when i'm wr0ng s0 that i will learn..
i d0n't want him t0 be perfectly str0ng and carry the burdens of the w0rld on his shoulders..
i want him to share them with me.. 2 g0 through it t0gether..1 step at a tme..
0nly than will i kn0w he trusts and is willing t0 make me part of his life..
i d0n't want him t0 be inhumanly perfect..
want him t0 be human..warm flesh and bl0od that has em0tions..

i believe a gul needs a guy..

wh0m understands her..wh0 will protect and c0mfort..wh0 will turn to her when he need l0ve..wh0 not only listens but als0 does not brush her aside when he is in trouble..wh0 trusts and is willing to share..one wh0 is wise enough t0 contr0l his emoti0ns but can't help feelin jealous all the same when he sees his gul with an0ther man..a man wh0 thinks y0u're beautiful fr0m the inside..a guy wh0 sees the pain in your eyes when 0thers see the smile on y0ur face..a man wh0 gives y0u en0ugh r0om but reels y0u back int0 his arms when u g0 t0 far..a man wh0 g0es t0 sleep thinking h0w lucky he is t0 be in l0ve with y0u..a man wh0 wants t0 sleep with the sight of y0ur peaceful slumber and wake up t0 y0ur smile..a man wh0 w0uld turn t0 his frens n say "hey!that's my gul"..a man wh0 pr0mises and keeps his pr0mises..a man wh0m he w0ud want to start a family with.. a guy wh0 w0uld take care of her for the rest of her life.. a man wh0 h0lds her tyt when she cries..& most imp0rtantly a man wh0 is l0yal and trully faithful to her..

n0 man or w0man in fact can ber perfect..which 0ne w0uld you prefer?

perfecti0n..

or..

imperfect imperfecti0n?

ill pick the latter =)

adi0s..

smile

inspired by my ex english teacher's essay title =)

valentine's day influenced =D

It was a chilly Sunday morning as i sat staring at the morning sun.The sound of children's laughter drifted up to me and warmed up my bones from the icy fingers of Jack Frost.The melody of chirping birds transported me back to a brighter summer day..where my steps were lighter and the lines of age were yet to be etched on my features...

30th January,1910
I was at a pool party,enjoying myself..The music was great and the atmosphere was simply lively..Meeting up up with old friends,making new ones,it seemed as if the night could not get any better. Than he came,n he smiled.

"Hey,i'm Simon.This song is really lovely..so,may i have this dance?...."

12th January,1910
It was our first date..N i was feeling rather nervous..He came with a smile, the very same one that i fell for.He held out a rose,a pretty pink one.A small note was attached to the rose and it said
"It's okay if you're not prepared to be in love with me so soon.I know you've been through enough to have your doubts.We don't need to go that far,let's hold on to where we are. For i have faith that if its real we'll make it through.All i'll ever need is you" It was a wonderful day.

14th February 1912

We were at the airport,silent,fingers intertwined. His luggage has already been hauled onto the plane. The last call for his flight has been announced.My fingers tightened as an invisble hand squeezed my throat. He turned around and gave me that beautiful smile once more.Strong as ever,my darling boy

." Darling, i'll have to go now. The time has come for me to study abroad and it would be a long lonely 5 years.I wish i could keep you for myself but that would me selfish of me and cruel to you. I''ll go now and fulfill my dreams of being the perfect husband for you.While i'm gone,i'll not refrain you from other men that may come knocking on the doors of your heart. When i return, you shall be the first person i seek and i'll claim your heart if it is still mine to be owned.I'll wait,and even if my love is in vain,i'll never love another as much as i love you".

When his lips touched mine, i savoured every moment. I sent him off with a brave smile and watched him disappear into the crowd. And i broke down,and cried.

14th March 1917

He was due to return today. We both fulfilled our promise of abstinence from any sort of communication during the 5 years. Longing and missing him has been hard,but i preservered and carried on with my life. Finally that telegram came,announcing his return.I nervously smoothered my hair and looked out for that familiar face. A surge of blood rushed to my cheeks and i realized it was the very same smile.

He's back...

1st of January 1920

Our wedding date.

"I want to make it a double celebration every year love, your birthday and our anniversary.This way, even when i'm old and wrinkled and my memory fades,i'll never forget this date.The begining of every year, a new meaning for us both"

As i walked down that aisle, he stood at the end,tall and proud. We brought up 2 children, both just as handsome and as loving as the father. They inherited his lopsided smile, and his loving nature towards others.As i watch them run around in the backyard, i still wonder what is was that made a perfect man like him fall for an ordinary girl like me. I've asked him once,but he only smiled in reply.

15th September 1993

It was his funeral today.After an exhausting battle with cancer, God decided to bring him Home. Even till the very end he managed to smile at me every time his eyes fluttered open. I drew strength from his courage. After he was burried, i returned to the cottage he bulit for me and reached out for an envolope. His very last letter to me.

My darling wife Jay,

It has been a long loving journey and i never once regretted knowing and loving you. My time know is limited,my body is alreday showing signs. There are still so many things i wish to say and do for you,so many more memories i wish to make. However,i believe i've already given you the most important thing of all, the knowledge that i love you,i always had and always will..I feel blessed whenever i wake up to the sight of your face of to go to sleep within your warm hug. You are my life,angel and you will always be. This is not goodbye really,it's just till i meet you again. I have to make things perfect for you just i as i always do..remember? I'll build you a perfect house up there and wait keep it spick and span for you. Have no fear when i am gone love,i'll always be close by. Watching over you,keeping you away from harm. Remember the first ever song that we danced to at the party? " Smile an everlasting smile,a smile can bring you near to me,its only words and words are all i have,to take your heart away.."it has been my favourite song ever since..whenever i hear that song, i picture you in that sweet dress swaying to the rhythm in my arms.You were beautiful love,and i fell for you the instant i set my eyes upon you.I'll miss you sweetheart,promise me you'll live a good life.I'm just studying abroad again..only for a longer period alright? i love you,Jay,and i'll be waiting..

with all my love and care,
Simon

15th September 1998

My fingers shook i folded that yellowed piece of parchment again. The sound of laughing children seemed to fade away and my vision started to dim. A bright light ushered me in and i could see a figure comig towards me. In the horizon laid a handsome big house,similar to the structure of my present cottage..

Hello darling,welcome home"..He smiled.

the last breath expired from my lungs and my lips curled upwards into one final smile.

Simon brought me home,finally..

may u guys find true love this valentine! =)

choice

this is one of my personal favourite pieces..hope u'll like it too!!

if i had to choose between breathing and l0ving you,

darling i'm sorry but i'd have to choose..

t0 leave y0u f0r l0ving y0u..

is all i'll ever want t0 d0..

i'll use my last breath t0 say i l0ve y0u..

d0n't ever h0ld y0ur feelings back..

let the tears fl0w free, let y0ur cheeks be wet..

i'll wipe them dry..

with the wind that c0mbs thr0ugh the sky..

the cl0uds will part and the sun will shine..

a symb0l of my l0ve divine,

f0r u my dear are the only l0ve of mine..

if i had t0 ch0ose between sight and l0ving y0u,

sweet l0ve i'm s0rry but i have t0 ch0ose..

t0 be blind than t0 stp l0ving y0u..

i d0 n0t need my eyes t0 see y0ur beauty..

f0r y0ur face is etched in me f0r eternity.. y

0ur v0ice will be my guide..

t0 lead me 0ut fr0m darkness t0 light..

words fr0m thy lips soothing melody to my ears..

f0r y0u my dear,r the cure t0 my fears.

if i had t0 ch0ose between silence and l0ving you,

my dear i'd give up b0th ears just t0 keep on loving u..

y0ur smile w0uld give me strength..

it'll reach me th0 we're parted by miles of length..

the s0und of y0ur laughter will play in me like a tune of a broken rec0rd..

repeating itself at its own acc0rd..

f0r y0u my angel,are the harm0ny t0 my ch0rd..

if i had t0 ch0ose between y0u hating me and me l0ving y0u..

h0ney,i'd have t0 let y0u hate me..

watching y0u smile fr0m afar.. seeing y0u shine like a star..

is all i can ever ask f0r..

f0r you are my life,

my little shiny star.

so n0w you kn0w what i'll ch0ose..

i'll cut the r0pes t0 let y0u loose..

if releasing means giving you life..

i'll suffer,when y0u smile it'll all suffice.

i l0ve you, i always will...