something real long and worth reading~

lol~ this was due to k leen's comment.
i realized i wrote that but never really came around writing it.
i don't really know what's wrong.
i get these ideas to write something funny and witty~
yet when i'm in front of the screen,my fingers do not seem to be willing to coperate.

anyway,
exams were fine i suppose :)
thank God.
it was a long week,
long in the sense that my laptop crashed.
imagine being in your aprtment,
surrounded by people who are half delirious with all the exam stress,
and no internet -.-
no laptop even,
so it means no songs,no movies,no downloaded novels.
omg.
lckily i had my phone and charger,which means i still had music.
or else i would have been nuts.
lol~


so i came back after that,
and mooched around*is mooched even a word?*
and got bored with facebook..
got hooked onto a little bit of Julia Quinn and got tired of that..
and now i am finally hooked onto Hong Kong dramas :D
i was up with my mum till 1.30 yesterday marthon-ing Moonlight Ressonance
now i'm racing against time to finish up Forensic Heroes :)


did i mention that jealousy is a singularly unpleasant feeling?
it is you know
they say a little jealousy is needed in every healthy relationship,
i find jealousy irritating,
especially if you're not the one who is jealous,
but your partner or your spouse.
when i'm jealous i just keep it to myself,
however icky that feeling is.
so i suppose seeing people fight over "jealousy" amuses me most of the time :)

i have been somewhat short tempered this few days,
and my mood swings are scary.
lol
i can be agitated one minute and all lovely the next.
okay,
short tempered isn't the word.
i just get easily frustrated and annoyed.
hm,
perharps the start of a new semester would be awesome :)

oh did i mention i'm still somehow scared out of my wits of debate?
why ah?
aiyo..

okay,
i know i know,
my mind seems to be in clutters and all disorganized.
once i get back to my apartment in Malacca,
i plan on sitting down and to start writing lists.
of what to do,things to achieve and whatnot.
writing puts my mind at ease,
writing list organizes my mind,my whole self.
i'm not much of a filer,although i have held many secretary posts.
i'm more of a list writer.
i keep myslef organized that way,
list of happy things,list of sad things,list of things i like,list of thing i don't.
i like writing "to do" or "to achieve" lists most,
cause i love the satisfaction when i get to cancel something off the list :)

i think gossip girl is somewhat cool,
and vampire diaries ended ona pretty interesting note last tuesday.
but i did not make myself search for gossip girl downloads cause i didn't want to get addicted.
i searched for vamp diaries tho,
and didn't quite succeed.
suggestions anyone?
would be nice to watch it with my bro.

pmr starts on monday,
i need to give zaki a call,
he's a big boy now,
and i'm sure he'd do awesome.
my eldest adik angkat would be facing his spm soon,
and he too i'm sure would rock it.
ala,
its ashraf! he'll laugh his way through :)

i have been very happy and contented being at home for the past week.
the holidays is coming to an end and its time to open a new chapter in my life.
semester 2 is coming and may it be a happy and productive one.
my timetable isn't what i'd call ideal and i'm a little nervous to find out my sem 1 results,
but i'm determined to start sem2 with a smile,
and determined to make it a good one.
Life's short,let's live it to the fullest.


this is the most crappy blog post and i'm not sure whether its's worth reading,
but it sure is long!
and its basically the stuff that has been through my mind :)

it was me she was referring to.
i was on that list but i did not realize.
oh my.
it's me.

im back! XD

i''ll post something real long and worth reading after finals.
pinky promise. :)

mission impossible set.
target time finished,1900.
will report back later.

studying style 2~
i write.
i write facts over and over again.
i just sit down and randomnly take a piece of paper and a pen and i write.
i write and check
i write somemore.
wanna check and see whether i've been studying?
look around my house,my room, or the place where i reside.
you see lotsa rubbish writing around?
yeap,
i've been a good girl.
what?
i didn't say my writing must be nice mar..
aiyo :)

my style of studing~
rewards.
if i finish this chapter before 3 oclock, i get to go on the net fr half an hour.
if i memorize this,i can watch that programme on tv.
if i remember this,i'll go eat some chocolate.
it works :)

9 8 8 8 = 33/40

not satisfied.
too greedy?
hmm.

hello Jesus :)

im sorry i've been neglecting you.

I've been enjoying myself at home,

staring at the tv and laptop's screen,

and burying my nose in books in between.

i seek courage and faith,

that things will be okay.

You will take care of me,

i know.

when i feel like giving up,

please remind me why i need to get up.

i love you!

and thank you once again :)

"did God paint you?"
"why yes"*chuckles*
"but why?"
"God wants diversity in his people,little one"

Robin Hood,Prince of Theives

so adorable!!!

chuck and blair in gossip girl.
i've only watched 3 episodes in my life,
but something about the way chuck is with blair in those 3 episodes,
something so trusting and willing
so unlike his icy strong manner,
snapped something in me.
and i don't quite know what.

writer's block ><
wow,
that does NOT happen often.
i usually have TONS of things to say.

how do i feel?
hmm..
that's prbably a good question.
n there are a few good answers.

wierd.sad.glad.empty.

and i think empty is good.
i was surprised i feel asleep at 2.
i tot i wud be up the whole night.
i surprised myself again by getting up at 7,
which is usually unlikely when i sleep at 2.
i even managed to send u a text with not so many coherent words.
but im sure you understood it,
cause all u replied in a manner which implied u did.
i fell asleep again and surprised myself for the third time in one day.
i woke up precisely at nine and stared at the clock.
knowing that your plane just took off and transported u to ur next adventure.

empty is good because it indicates closure.
a proper closure.
empty is good because it means im finally,
after all the "finally's",
that im finally over u.
yeah,
im over u as a lover,
the next time we meet,
it'll be on the comfortable grounds of friendship.
or maybe even brother sisterhood.
empty means my heart and soul is free.
empty means i'm ready for the person who is meant to be.
empty means i'm strong
empty means i'll be okay.
and empty also means you'd see a different girl in two years time.

empty is good.
i think i like empty.
a lot.

Fairytales?

I have this lousy control over romance
I detest it and love it too much at the same time.
I refrain myself from romance novels and movies..
And yet I can seem to get myself away when I actually indulge in them.
I love the idea of prince charming romancing a damsel in distress.
I adore the concept that a kiss can take your breath away.
I indulge in the thought that my future husband would love and want me,and not any other women.
I smile at the thought that he would father my children and love them.
I grin every time the hero manages to melt the heroine.
I warm up at the chapters where the macho hero breaks down and allows the heroine to reach into the very core of his heart.
A place only she can explore.
I swoon at the thought of elderly couples madly in love with each other as if they are 16.
This is the only part of the fairytale which I believe still exist.
A part which I am not willing to let go of.
Aburd?
Perharps.
But I'm going to continue praying.
And pray real hard that the Lord gives me this happy ending.