Jika Kau Kekasih

This song has been stuck in my brain for far too long.

Lets see how putting it into my blog will help :)

tidakkah terasa beban yang aku pikul
menyiksa jiwaku kekasih
kenapa kau tak pernah merasakan

dan jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
harus kau mengerti hatiku
itu hanya apa yang ku impikan

bilakah kau akan mengerti...

kata hati merayu aku pergi
meninggalkan dirimu
tapi ku tak terdaya
mengapa kasih, harus ku alami..
setelah aku korban segala-galanya
sanggup ku harungi hidup
bersama dirimu meninggalkan
semua yang aku cintai...

jika kau kekasih senangkanlah hidupku
jangan biar aku begini
hidupku dalam kerunsingan kasih

jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
harus kau mengerti hatiku..
itu hanya apa yang ku impikan

bilakah kau akan mengerti..

kata hati merayu aku pergi
meninggalkan dirimu
tapi ku tak terdaya
mengapa kasih, harus ku alami..
setelah aku korban segala-galanya
sanggup ku harungi hidup
bersama dirimu meninggalkan
semua yang aku cintai...ho..ho...

kata hati merayu aku pergi
meninggalkan dirimu
tapi ku tak terdaya
mengapa kasih, harus ku alami..
setelah aku korban segala-galanya
sanggup ku harungi hidup
bersama dirimu meninggalkan
semua yang aku cintai...kasih ...

on facebook, the Today God wants You to know application told me :

that you learn what you do. If you worry a lot, then day after day you are learning how to worry even better. If you think about doing something a lot, then you are learning how to think about doing. Every moment you are happy, you are learning how to be even happier. Every time you act, you are learning how to take an action even better. What is it that you've been learning today? What is it that you want to learn tomorrow?

so what is it that i wanna learn?

as for now,

I want to learn to let go.

Let loose those that bring more harm than good.

Let go of the past, there's a reason why it did not make it to the future.

Let go of things that hurt, and let the wound heal.

Let go of past humiliations and faults,its okay to make mistakes.

Let go of the bitterness, cause thinking about bitterness makes me bitter.

Just let go,

and strive towards the future.

and have faith that the best is yet to arrive.

tired.

really tired.

just wanna close my eyes and make it all go away.

i'm going home this week,

all will be well.

Enlightenment

So i went for debate practice today,

and it managed to pull me ryt out of my bad mood :)

wheeee~

although there was bad news waiting for me right after.

*to esin and adrian, you guys are AWESOME people and i heart you with all my heart. things will be better,i promise. till then, you have me and shawn to make attempts at making you ppl smile. hugs!*

anyway,

we were given five minutes to come up with a ONE minute speech based on a word.

My word was ENLIGHTENMENT.

Frankly, that word sounded sooooo deep that i wasn't even sure what i should talk about.

but basically, this is a rough idea of my speech.

Hi :)

The word assigned to me tonight is enlightenment.

To me, this means is the discovery of truth.

When the fog clears up and the veil is lifted, you see the clear picture of what reality really is.

Enlightenment is very vital and essential in our lives.

It is something that every individual seeks for,

although most of us do not even realize it.

Only through the discovery of truth, that one can truly live.

I relate to enlightenment in two levels.

On a basic everyday level, enlightenment can mean the comprehension of a simple fact.

For example, when you finally understand what your lecturer said, it is a form of enlightenment.

On a more philosophical and higher level, enlightenment is the true understanding of life.

Before we can achieve this, we have to understand the world around us.

But before we get there, we need to understand ourselves.

And to understand ourselves,

We need to attain inner peace.

How do we do that?

It is by believing that we have the right to have opinions and that it is our right to be heard.

We need to understand that each individual is unique and we do not need to change that.

Once we finally grasp that concept,

we would understand ourselves and then understand the world around us.

Enlightenment of life,is when we realize there is more to the world then material wealth and physical pleasure.

Thank you. =)

hehe, just felt like sharing it.

cheers people,

here's to a better tomorrow.

midterm was like a bullet train.
time management problem i suppose ><
oh well,
no to concentrate on legal method assignment,
consti and contract,
and malaysian studies.
and to try not to scratch my finger again.
aiyo.
and to immerse myself in the news!
the reports on the BERSIH rally provides me with endless amusement.
Since it prevented me from going home,
mind as well enjoy the humor from.
dinner thn law lib!
shall update soon :)

goals.

and its been awhile since i've actually trully set a goal for myself.

infact,i've been so insecure of my abilities for the past few years that i've ever dared to set up a goal for myself.

as of today,

i have 3 targets to hit.

1) first class for sem 1 of degree

2) national novice debate.

3) weight control.

frankly,

it seems kinda out of my reach.

but i'll try.

and if people laugh at me if i fail,

i'll just walk with my head held high.

cause i fought.

and that's all that matters.

and once again,it hits me.when i'm unaware,when i'm off guard.when i didn;t even know it could hurt me.

it strikes again.

today is like the last day of this debate competition.

and so far,it has been great =)

let's just say i'm a very lucky girl.

in the first round, i din have to adjudicate, so i got to watch BC,Emax and D debate =)

in the the second round, i adjudicated the top room with Dr Omer as my Chief Adj.

in the third round, i got thrown into being the Chair.

and was still the chair for rounds 4 and 5.

i'm just really blessed and thankful =)

i'd love to update more but i'll save it for later.

loves.