i think i have this tendency to choose things that are likely to be harder for me.

like in form 4 and 5 i HAD to take the science stream.

and now that i'm done with high school, i HAD to take law.

which means that my scientific knowledge can't be actually put into used.

and now i have to read all those scary legal text.

ANYWAY,

i'm just having this random steam release post cause today's debate sessions totally wiped me off.

i'm so tired cause my brain literally had to do 100 meter sprints after a whole week of lazing around doing nothing.

talk about brain cramps.

and i do not know how to have an opening.

i tot i had one in the second debate and apparently i don't.

today i had to support bestiality or zoo sexuality.

which is totally gross to me.( for those of you who don;t know, it means having sex with animals)

which is fine cause i had sheri with me and she could guide me.

which is also fine cause just because i supported a motion does not mean i have to do it.

which is fine also because feedbacks were positive, i was told i had good structure.

the not fine part was in the second debate.

i became the whip because i totally thought i could handle it.

which i thought would be easier.

which was not.

i totally sucked at it.

and apparently what i thought was an opening was not.

gah.

this is grumpy hungry tired me.

Now that that is out of my system, i realized a few things.

1) i still have a long way to go in debate, which i actually enjoy. which means i gotta stop being too harsh on myself everytime one debate does not go as planned because as much as i want to always win, i can't always win.

2) opening, stance, points, rebuttals, elaborations, closing.

3) opening closing opening closing.

4) it just about to be eleven and i'm already ready for bed.

may tomorrow be a better day!

p/s law isn't that bad, it's kinda ok i guess. tiring but okay. so is debate.lol.

night people :)