yes,
i am onto a new obsession :)
Grey's Anatomy.
that show just makes me laugh and cry at the same time its scaring me.
i am currenlty at season one and i'm loving it.
.
.
.
.
.
.
on second thought,
omaigosh!
i can never ever ever ever ever be a doctor.
i think i'll break down the moment i enter the ER or the trauma ward.
u can force me to sit all day in a room filled with piles and piles and piles of cases and i'll survive it no matter how much i complain.
i can be forced to stay in a lab to examine microscopic almost non existent bacteria and i will come out of that lab alive.
you may force me to do a million pieces of technical drawings and i'll still be able to stabilize myself on both of my feet despite the fact that those drawings probably sucked out the life and soul outta me.
ask me to do accounts, day in and day out and i'll produce quality work at the end of the day although i may be crossed eyed by the time i finish.
but medics?
NO.
i cannot stand the fact that one single slip may tear the aorta of a beating heart.
i cannot bear to think that my patient is in pain and i have to CUT her open to POSSIBLY make things better.
i cannot get called to the patient's bedside and find a Do Not Resucitate sign hanging there.i mean like WHAT?
i cannot bear the sound of people screaming and grunting in pain.
i'd flee at the sight of a dislocated knee and millions of bloddy wounds that i do not know where to start.
and most of all?
i cannot face death.
i cannot see patients slip out of consciousness and return to the Good God even if it means ending their pain.
I cannot bear being paged and sprinting to the ward to find my patient barely breathing.
i just cannot do that.
i may put up a strong front sometimes but my emotional front is mushy no good.
i'd love to witness the birth of a child but only after the mother is happily smiling and the baby is properly cleaned up.
I'd love to watch the process of healing but only if i do not have to see the stitches coverd up by the hospital gowns.
and for that,
i salute those doctors and nurses who do not flinch at the sight of blood and rescue people like they're angels that are heaven sent.
i am onto a new obsession :)
Grey's Anatomy.
that show just makes me laugh and cry at the same time its scaring me.
i am currenlty at season one and i'm loving it.
.
.
.
.
.
.
on second thought,
omaigosh!
i can never ever ever ever ever be a doctor.
i think i'll break down the moment i enter the ER or the trauma ward.
u can force me to sit all day in a room filled with piles and piles and piles of cases and i'll survive it no matter how much i complain.
i can be forced to stay in a lab to examine microscopic almost non existent bacteria and i will come out of that lab alive.
you may force me to do a million pieces of technical drawings and i'll still be able to stabilize myself on both of my feet despite the fact that those drawings probably sucked out the life and soul outta me.
ask me to do accounts, day in and day out and i'll produce quality work at the end of the day although i may be crossed eyed by the time i finish.
but medics?
NO.
i cannot stand the fact that one single slip may tear the aorta of a beating heart.
i cannot bear to think that my patient is in pain and i have to CUT her open to POSSIBLY make things better.
i cannot get called to the patient's bedside and find a Do Not Resucitate sign hanging there.i mean like WHAT?
i cannot bear the sound of people screaming and grunting in pain.
i'd flee at the sight of a dislocated knee and millions of bloddy wounds that i do not know where to start.
and most of all?
i cannot face death.
i cannot see patients slip out of consciousness and return to the Good God even if it means ending their pain.
I cannot bear being paged and sprinting to the ward to find my patient barely breathing.
i just cannot do that.
i may put up a strong front sometimes but my emotional front is mushy no good.
i'd love to witness the birth of a child but only after the mother is happily smiling and the baby is properly cleaned up.
I'd love to watch the process of healing but only if i do not have to see the stitches coverd up by the hospital gowns.
and for that,
i salute those doctors and nurses who do not flinch at the sight of blood and rescue people like they're angels that are heaven sent.
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