i am in a very agitated mood..

every little thing seem to be pricking my heart,

pushing me to the ver end of my limit..

like a baloon waiting to burst..

gah.

i seem to be snapping around to everyone..

my dad, my mum , my bro and even some of my frens..

i feel bad.

i just don't feel like talking these few days.

when asked " hows ur day?", i'll just say " okayla..normal..nothing much.."

how do i tell them this frustration i feel inside?

as it is they are already trying thier best to get me into it..

already lowering their ego, asking ppl fr help..

making excuses for me..

that upu thing really shot a hole right through myheart...

i don't actually know whether i wanna go or not if i get it..

but the fact that i din get it makes me feel utterly..

useless.

i need answers.

or more like i need courage.

everytime i say its okay jess,focus on what u have now, something just has to pop up..

as if to tell me i am not good enuff.

gah.

i better stop rambling now.