i wasn't tagged bt i just felt like doing this (k leen,yes i stole this from your page =D)

1. list facts for 10 different people.
2. don't reveal who they are.
3. you can comment but don't answer to guesses. the idea is that no one knows who the facts are indicated to.


so,ten huh? urm....this is gonna be a brutally frank and honest one.sometimes,after it is let out,it woudn't haunt you anymore.

1) i was actually scared of her for a good erm 3,4 months? haha..yeah..i know funny it seems now how i can bully her all i want.seriously.=p i don't know what it is,but somhow she listens to me..all through her crazy roller coaster tantrums she listens when i say something,anything.even her frens are surprised how i can sometimes get through to her within a shorter time although they failed after trying for hours.okay,sometimes she does not hear it right away but eventually she does =) haha..sure, we had our fights and when i say fights, i really only mean that one historic fight..over a thing that was,well,silly.blergh.but yeah.she's darn protective of herself if you ask me,but in a way i'm glad i know her.And i'm even happier she would let me into her world and help her to start healing.i know it hurts sister though i would not say i understand coz i really don't.cos i'm lucky to be this spoilt lucky child who has not gone through what you have.But i always know that you are strong.but most importantly i want you to know, you don't need to be strong always,its okay to be human kayh? and more importantly, its okay to be a girl sis.=)

2)you,the one that i've fallen head over heels with. you, the one whom i endured all the scary stares and intense emotional trauma for.you,the first guy i've ever said i love you too.you,the one who has turned my life upside down and inside out. the 1 and the half years (almost) i had with you was interesting. you made me smile and laugh and be all giggly. you made me feel important,you made me feel special and you made me feel i was worth existing. trully, in the begining, i forced myself not to believe my luck,not to believe you actually cared.I was just terrified i'd wake up one day and fin out that it was all just a lie, just a fluke to make me think better of my self. I've never forgotten a memory,i've never forgotten the promises you made. What surprised me really that i was the one who broke them. Okay,maybe not too surprised. From the very begining i knew that forever was just out of our grasps.And i knew that i would be the one to put up the white flag.You always told me i was strong.Maybe i'm not. Maybe as a girl, my limits could only stretch so far. But i thank you, and i thank you from the bottom of my heart. I want you to know, despite what others may say bout you, whatever the crituques and hatred they have flung in our way, i trully did love you. Don't ask me why or if i still do.Cause i have no appropriate answer for that.aybe what you should know is,i have absolutely no regrets.

3. Ahhh, number 3. I remember the late night conversations. I remember waking up to your call at 2 am in the morning and we talked untill it was 4.i was surprised how much ou actually trusted my judgement and be sure to know that i swell up with pride everytime i see you walk ast her with your head held up high. I feel a surge of love and tenderness everytime i see the pain in your eyes.

If time and place permits, i would have certainly pulled you in my arms and forced those tears out of you.

I remember the random times you'd appear and made me smile to myself.

As i've said before,i'm glad i could be your pillar,and help to fly again.

I'm glad that you have also gotten over that "little problem" of yours.

I remember you saying "jangan pergi" or "blaja elok2" or trying to imitate the sounds i make.

I remember every song i sang for you and i remember the way the sky looked everytime i did.

I miss you and i pray that you'll turn out a fantastic person.

"Self praise is motivation"

You will be a great an i know =)

4) frankly, i don't even know why i chose you to be a part of this list. Maybe i need to let go of all the pain you've cost me. It was you who made my last few months living hell. I was scared and i'm not sure what would that make you feel. strong? contented? satisfied? oh yea i was terrified. I prayed that time would just fly past so that i woud not need to on the same grounds as you any longer. But on the bright side,it was you who have taught me true courage. The ability to act despite of fear. Many view it as me stupidly lowering my ego to set things straight.To me, it was courage. I confronted you despite my accelerating heartbeats and when it was over,i'm glad it was. If you ever read this, although i know you don't want to hear this, i never meant to take him away from you. All i wanted was to love another. Maybe i was wrong, maybe knowing him at all was a mistake. Maybe. But in my life, i cannot and must not make room for maybe's. I hurt him beyond repair and i guess i'll never be forgiven for that. But at least,all my debts with you are paid.its not your fault,neither do i think its mine. It was just the wrong thing to do at the wrong time.

5) my favourite saxaphone player =p back there in that hell, you were an angel

sent from heaven. An angel not only to me but to the person whom i boldly claim to be my best friend.You have the ability to make me feel comfortable as who i am.

When i get all tensed up, you'd take me for a walk,

which you claim to be the only and most effective solution.Hahah..Even if it meant taking a walk at the most akward of times. We never had a fight and you never ever ever ever raised your voice when you are talking to me. You're worried when I am and you make me alryt again. Even if it means sacrificing your phone.

"ala, boleynyerrrrr..."

"ble x boleh jawab, kte kne gelak!!!"

i love you optimistic outlook on life, and i guess in a way i've been feeding or rather leeching on it to put back some faith in myself.

random memories of us would always make me smile because whenever i am in you company,be it for a few minutes or an hour,

you have always,always made me smile.

haha, you're the best i can ever ask for!

and thanks for the panda =)

7)number 7 rocks!lemme quote her for a bit..it goes something like this "i think our relationship is complicated and simple..complicated because it started with mutual aqquaintences but simple because at the end of the day its about you and me". She is definately my tai ka jie!! i look up to her a great deal and i wonder if she actually realizes it. I adore her passion for music and i respect her stand for the things she believes in. She just scolds the hell out a person if they do something wrong but we all know, deep down inside she just cares. Her patriotic feel for the institution she loves is just amazingly awesome. In a way, both of a share a mutual stage of caring for 2 of her adeks.But she, in so many ways, would understand them more than i'll ever dream off.She made me appreciate music even more and in 2009, she gave me the most wonderful 3 months of my stay there. She gave the orchestra more than she'll ever know, she gave us back the light and love for something that we trully are passionate for.

8) my highschool "sweetheart". haha!!!we are always early for meals and always together that the warden always teases that the both of us are "dating" and awwww!!! i love you too darling! *muahxx* blergh.that sounds so lesbian.haha.but yeap! she's awesome awesome awesome! we share a common love for the pool,swimming,music,studio,this particular guy,singing,tangga kejayaan and this thing for being early =D we sing definately, belting our hearts out whenever we feel like it. she holds my hand when we cross roads and claims that i'll be knocked down by a car someday if i don't learn soon =D N she almost always makes me go down for my meals. =) she' strong,she leads with charisma and she's just an angel.

9. This person has the knack of bull shiting with out blinking an eye =D

she persuades and manipulates people kinda easily..

and she ALWAYS asks teaches me to be a little meaner, think more of myself.

I remember our dreams of you,me and the person above visiting each other in UK.

Well, you and her have already secured your scholarships and are on your way day.

I'll join the both of you soon,maybe a little later..

but i will come, wait for me kayh?

you are an awesome violinist

and you kow one thing bout you that i really like?

your determination.

and your family,they really really really resemble mine =)

when you're up there on the political stage, speaking to the rest of the globe,

do remember your little vulnerable friends her okay?

10) Since this is the last one, i'll save it for someone special okay? you may be able to guess the other 9 easily, but i'm guessing none would be able to guess this one. This number 10 i dedicated to one of my most serious crush. He has a really sweet smile,and looks better with shorter hair..although he seems to like his current look a lot more. When i look into his eyes, i just melt. Haha. Yeah, you have another person to call your own now. I knew we would never be together, n i don't think i want to anyway.But it feels good to know that this crush is not wasted on exterior only. You are kind,nice and understanding. You care.