change

my hair!!! from super long hair of 3 and the half years to short layered hair to super duper short bob hairstyle hair!! my hair!!! omg..i dun really know wat to feel.. my first emotion was to punch the hair dresser's nose when she chopped off my pretty fringe =(( waaaaaa!!! the hair was realy okay until she killed the favourite part of my fringe =.= haiyer..but my hair wasn't that all bad i guess..it was okay la..the funniest reaction i got was probably from my beloved brother la..

*he walks down the stairs*

aiy0 jie!!! what happened to your hair?!?! u look so different alredy!!!

*i look at him*

bursts out laughing!!! haiyer, that bad meh my hair?

then i go to school on monday..enters class,kelvin is asleep..zzzzzz...then i go out to the corridor to check n see whether there are any cute guys frm the march intake *winks* yi jun walks past me, totally no reaction! haha.. nimitra's reaction was probably ranked number two on the funny list!

*gasps!!!*jess!!!!!!*bursts out laughing like crazy and gives me a big hug*awesome la your hair!!!*starts laughing all over again*

haha..zhen hong's reaction was much more subtle la..he was like..very nice very nice..hehe..i actually think he's sincere =) nich0las's reaction was third funny on the list..

*walking towards MPH with Aish*

"nick, where is our class ah? the whole row of classes like empty leh..got any change of venue o not?"

"how i know? i was not infor........jess!! u cut your hair!! *smiles very proudly of himself* i swear he was proud that he noticed!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

haha..the funniest part about my haircut is actually the reaction i recieve from everyone..yeah, some might think its ugly or what not..but to me, i feel lighter and younger.my mummy thinks i look ver much more my age with this hairstyle! i;ve been looking too matured for a very long time =)

x0x0

jessy =)

sometimes,

when there are too many things to absorbed..

too many feelings,

to many emotions..

to many thoughts..

you just can't make sense out of them anymore..

its time for you to let go..

and say goodbye..

but i'm not ready to..

so i'll just say,

till i see you again :')

i'm nt quite sure what i'm supposed to feel ryt nw..but i brought my artistic skills back to life after being dead for the past err 6 months? =)

=)

i just have this really happy feeling.. like happy2! for no particular reason..i want this to last and i will make sure it does =)

~i miss the stars shining brightly in the sky like diamonds in the black velvet ocean~

warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

now,that's better =)

just when you run out of words..=)

I don’t know but

I think I maybe

Fallin’ for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting ’til I Know you better

I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here

And you hold my hand

Pull me towards you

And we start to dance

All around us

I see nobody

Here in silence

It’s just you and me

I’m trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

and now I found ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it

My heart is racing

The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

and now I found ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

I think I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it

I want you all around me

And now I just can’t hide it

I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
I’m fallin’ for you

OoohhhOh no

noOooooohhhOh

I’m fallin’ for you

=)

i know it's silly,but i can't help falling for you.maybe you'll never know..maybe i don't want you to..but i'm still falling for you!

it turned out okay =)

its here

i danced!!! =)

i'm happy..=)
i danced and danced and danced and danced somemore..
n i forgot..
n for that one hour i actually didn't care..
my dance teacher teased us about the results but i didn't care..
fear didn't come and take away my euphoria..
i just danced..
and danced and danced and danced until i got all dizzy..
n me and my partner were sweating like crazy..
i danced and twirled and giggled..
i got confused and my legs got entangled,
my partner also got confused but we danced..
we danced and laughed and danced and danced..
it was my escape,my solace my dance..
i guess i looked silly..
i guess they were laughing at me..
but i didn't care..
cause i was dancing and i liked it that way..
i danced n i'm happy becaused i danced..
all my partners were awesome,
n i'm glad i danced..
i am now stronger and renewed because i danced =)

things that make me smile!!

in no particular order

friends =)

cute taiwan and korean actors =p

music


babies(b4 they cry!) n adorable smiles




dancing

sunrise and sunsets

waterfalls

stars!!!

and of course,rainbows! =)

...almost heaven...

so,when you are super stressed when you know the date of your spm results and you're at home with no means of dancing and a lost of taste in the available telecommunication tools, what does one do? Simple. Borrow a novel from the library and read.

So yeah, this is basically about a book i read yesterday, after failing to calm my nerves. And it gave me the exact cure i need : peace. Reading always transforms me into a another realm,where reality fades away as the author takes your on a trilling adventure in his or her imagination. It never fails to amaze me, how a string of alphabets when arranged and rearranged can produce such wonders, provide me with the escape and happiness i crave. =)

This book was called Almost Heaven by Judith McNaught.Yeah, the usual image that often forms in the minds off many after hearing that author's name would be the sexual element that is never absent from her writings. This book, most of her other books i've read offered more than just that. Judith has the ability to bring the beauty of nature alive. The way she decribes the hills,valleys and stars always makes me yearn to be in that particular place, witnessing it for my own. Her stories usually encompasses countrysides with ocassional drifts in plots towards the city, London for example.

In this book, she has once again spun me into a realm of wonderful romance. Ian and Elizabeth fends and trips over various obstacles placed in thier way. What's different in this novel i realized was the pace of their love story. It wasn't the usual, "meet,fight,drool and fall in love" kinda route. There was distinct tenderness this time and it felt so surreal that i believed it.The innocence of the heroine and the matured patience of the hero laced with this outrageous temper kept at bay most of the time kept me on my toes most of the time.The conflicts were genuine, not corny and the whole thing just seemed so real! This is certainly a mark of a fantastic writer. It helps even more that her knack for old English language has made the package even more perfect!

So all in all, this is one is a really good catch and i recommend it to u people. It gave me the escape i needed and hope it will keep you enlightened too!

i'm going on a date!!! *grins* with who??? ohhh...

Dearest 11th March 2010..
hello,
I've had an unspoken promise to date you ever since i first stepped into the gates of KYS..
That was on the 5th of January 2005..
5 years have past and i can't believe the waiting is over..
They even announced our date on tv nationwide!!!
I hope we'll have a good one..
You're gonna make me cry i'm sure..
Since i've been anticipating it since forever..
Make it tears of joy will u?? =)
My friends are going to be there as well..
So,
don't disappoint us kayh?

x0x0,
jess


ARISTOCRATS, we'll pull through this together..once more..just as we always do=)

::: rindu :::

likey2 this song!!!( bt m nt sure if the lyrics are entirely ryt..sorry.. i sing melodies fine but words slip off my mind sumtyms )

rintik hujan mengetuk jendela..

seakan bertanyakan berita..

apa khabarmu di sana?

moga kau bahagia sentiasa....

angin lembut menghembus ke pipi..

seakan sentuhan jarimu...

apa kau juga begitu?

menanati penuh setia pada kasih kita?

dengarkah diri degupan cintaku bergetar..

di kala ku sebut nama mu hatiku berdebar..

ingin ku selami semua apa yang kau rasa..

jarak yang memisah menguji kasih kita..

ku titipkan rinduku di balik cahaya suria..

ku layarkan cintaku di balik cahaya suria..

bahagianya kiranya kau berada di sisi..

sungguh kau ku kasih..

dan selaluku rindui...

rose dearie, i remember that tym when adam sang this song for you..miss u girl!!

:: friday come quickly, i need to dance :::

guess how i spent yesterday morning while waiting for my econs teacher??
i was out with nimitra at the corridor watching kids from sri KL.
no,we're not paedophiles okay..we were just very stressed up people waiting for D-day to arrive. Those lucky kids were playing and playing around with nothing to worry abt.Except for " who's gonna get to that swing first"
n we started talking abt old friends and singing n yeah, i did feel better tho i gt some concerned glances from ppl passing by =D
i can't see beyond the date 16th of March. My law lecturer gave an assignment due on the 23rd of March..N frankly at this point of time, i feel as if that date would never be given a chance to mark itself in world history. Or in the history of my life rather.
My mum couldn't sleep because she is also stressed- abt my results.
The person whom always tells me not to worry is also worried.
Now i'm double triple worried n stressed, but its not her fault.
The mechanism of my body handling this is kinda exhausting and unhealthy - too much food and too much sleep.
haih..i just don't wanna disappoint my parents that's all.
They are the most awesome people i've ever met.
Yes, ive done my best but will the outcome be the best too??
Some really smart people i know, and very hardworking also flunked their SPM without any apparent reason. I don't want that to happen really.
tommorow is friday thank g0d, i have dancing class.
when Jay Sen confirmed there would be class tomorrow i exhaled a breath of relief.
At least for that one hour,i'd be free from fear.
At least my pulse would be at a normal rate and i can breathe easily.
At least i'll be able to give myself a break tommorow, for that one hour.
At least for one hour i can be selfish and keep myself happy.
After that one hour, i'll face reality again. Stonger and re energised.
One hour,just one.
I cannot afford to do badly.
I just can't.
Please g0d, give me the courage to pull through this.
And a little good luck too.


Aristocrats, let's pray for the best.

::: TICK TOCK TICK TOCK :::

wanna know?

wanna know what's worst than RESULTS?

yes,THE spm results?

its the

WAITING!!!!!

i'm being plagued by the horrific dreams that to a certain extent,

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.

m tired,just get over with it.

as my mum says, now there's A LEVELS.

what else can i do abt the past?

x0x0,

jess.

thanks for giving me a reason to smile, a reason for waking up every morning =) imy.