9 8 8 8 = 33/40

not satisfied.
too greedy?
hmm.

hello Jesus :)

im sorry i've been neglecting you.

I've been enjoying myself at home,

staring at the tv and laptop's screen,

and burying my nose in books in between.

i seek courage and faith,

that things will be okay.

You will take care of me,

i know.

when i feel like giving up,

please remind me why i need to get up.

i love you!

and thank you once again :)

"did God paint you?"
"why yes"*chuckles*
"but why?"
"God wants diversity in his people,little one"

Robin Hood,Prince of Theives

so adorable!!!

chuck and blair in gossip girl.
i've only watched 3 episodes in my life,
but something about the way chuck is with blair in those 3 episodes,
something so trusting and willing
so unlike his icy strong manner,
snapped something in me.
and i don't quite know what.

writer's block ><
wow,
that does NOT happen often.
i usually have TONS of things to say.

how do i feel?
hmm..
that's prbably a good question.
n there are a few good answers.

wierd.sad.glad.empty.

and i think empty is good.
i was surprised i feel asleep at 2.
i tot i wud be up the whole night.
i surprised myself again by getting up at 7,
which is usually unlikely when i sleep at 2.
i even managed to send u a text with not so many coherent words.
but im sure you understood it,
cause all u replied in a manner which implied u did.
i fell asleep again and surprised myself for the third time in one day.
i woke up precisely at nine and stared at the clock.
knowing that your plane just took off and transported u to ur next adventure.

empty is good because it indicates closure.
a proper closure.
empty is good because it means im finally,
after all the "finally's",
that im finally over u.
yeah,
im over u as a lover,
the next time we meet,
it'll be on the comfortable grounds of friendship.
or maybe even brother sisterhood.
empty means my heart and soul is free.
empty means i'm ready for the person who is meant to be.
empty means i'm strong
empty means i'll be okay.
and empty also means you'd see a different girl in two years time.

empty is good.
i think i like empty.
a lot.

Fairytales?

I have this lousy control over romance
I detest it and love it too much at the same time.
I refrain myself from romance novels and movies..
And yet I can seem to get myself away when I actually indulge in them.
I love the idea of prince charming romancing a damsel in distress.
I adore the concept that a kiss can take your breath away.
I indulge in the thought that my future husband would love and want me,and not any other women.
I smile at the thought that he would father my children and love them.
I grin every time the hero manages to melt the heroine.
I warm up at the chapters where the macho hero breaks down and allows the heroine to reach into the very core of his heart.
A place only she can explore.
I swoon at the thought of elderly couples madly in love with each other as if they are 16.
This is the only part of the fairytale which I believe still exist.
A part which I am not willing to let go of.
Aburd?
Perharps.
But I'm going to continue praying.
And pray real hard that the Lord gives me this happy ending.