The taiwan trip does come with a huge price.

Missing one midterm during the trip.

Having one Midterm right after i come back.

Missing one presentation during too!

Ah,

pressure is on!

so many things to dooooo! how lah!

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on another note,

3 days to go my dearies!

I hope you guys are ready as ever!

*Exam mode on*

hehe :D

"Here's to you, hoping that someday, you'll realize that I really did care."

the thing about you and me.i realize our radars do not always match.except for the last few months in 2009.

but i'll try my best.and hope you do too.i always fight for what i know is worth it,

but the thing is kid,

i cannot fight forever.

i had a beautiful surprise yesterday. :)
the pictures are up and i'll upload as soon as i reach home okay?
gtg class now.
xox0

NADIA AND SUFFIAN AND BRYAN AND NADZRIF CAME JUST NOW!!!!
Sara couldn't make it but if you are reading this i MISS YOU so MUCH gk!!!
OMG!!
that like totally made my day.
so happy la this week.
and the weeks to come.
carolling last weekend
surprise visit today
christmas party tomorrow night
home for weekend on friday
christmas party next tuesday
home again for new year.
maybe going to Tangkak the week after next.
than finals ==
better make sure i study hard.
can go have fun but,
yeah :)

ho ho ho!

so, caroling 2010 was one awesome experience! at first we were kinda worried lah. practices and all attendance not convincing. than not many houses called somemore.

but praise the Lord,
he always provides for those who intend to do good :)
so when the day came, we ad a total of 10 houses to visit.
and we had fun in all the houses.
the first house, hm!
kau2 one you know the food.
rice,meehoon,potato and chicken with kicap, and these awesome cakes and pork and veggie!
fuyoh!
good start good start!
and than we continued on and every house had something to offer us.
cakes,drinks,chocolates, and sweets!

there was this one house,were there were two elderly ladies staying.
a mother and her daughter i guess.
the mother so semangat wanna prepare drinks for us until she missed the performance.
and her house got one really HUGE rosary.
according to Ivan,
after pray on that rosary God will surely forgive all our sins one :D
anyway,
she served us cold SWEET sugarcane drink and some fruits.
and than she asked us whether we could go to her sister's house,
which was just down the road.
actually,
we were already wayyyyy behind schedule and were rather cranky and tired dy lah.
but we went anyway.
and when we went the house was like all dark and quiet dy,
so being the teenagers that we are,
we were like,
"aiyoh, why like that one"
we even told the aunty that we could come the next day as we were caroling for two days.
but the aunty said her sister got up dy so we waited lah.
haiyo so long winded right me,
but yeah.
SHE WAS SO HAPPY WE CAME.
so sad you know..
so old dy living in a house alone..
she was like repeating so many many times she's so happy we came.
although we could only sing a about 3 or 4 songs for her,
she was like so very very very happy.
and pack angpao somemore.
so kesian lah :(
i couldn't help but think,
she leads such a simple life yet still gve us angpao somemore.
singing for her i just an event that we would brush off.
classes and our normal daily routines and all,
probably by next week we would forget her existance or something dy.
but for her,
that short time we spent at her house might be her christmas joy and gift or something.
i hope her children will go back and celebrate with her lah.

anyway,
the first day was epic lah.
awesome dinner in the first house
camille getting a big painful kiss from one of the jealous brothers.
adrian almost rugby tackled by a big golden retriever
forsty the dog who had this thing for Shannon's toes and ran around in circle when we were about to leave
this really really cute Eurasian boy from Australia.
that lonely aunty
the Chinese New Year looking house that gave us damn nice punya cheesecakes
and the last house where the Timur Leste children were.

This one also a sad case lah.
I dunno who they are or where they came from..
but there were about twenty kids staying in this house that was somehow isolated from the rest.
these children were under the guidance of these two Europeans.
i mean,
from what i see,
there were not suffering from extreme poverty or what lah.
the had a decent house and decent living conditions.
but they were not living with their parents.
and i dun even know how many of them there are actual siblings.
and they were SO HAPPY THAT WE CAME.
they damn semangat clap after every song you know.
so sad lah when i see things like that. reminds me of how much i take things for granted :(
classes boring lah, food not nice lah.
i dun even know whether they got chance to go to school or not :(

kayh2..so long dy i wrote.
pictures time!!!

say hi to Santa!!! notice the odd thing about this pict??

bingo! his sack! haha..santa's sack is actually Andrea's handbag.
we totally forgot we needed one :D

this is the pict of ivan explaining how 21 years of his life has been a lie because he thought Santa was a male, until he saw the bag XD

group photo before we start :)
even taking photo time also so much hastle.
motorcycle pass by also wish merry christmas.
that's why these seniors are so awesome :D

the guys with their Macho pose.

this was the first house we caroled at.
Look at the empty plates of food and our big smiles!

the guy on the right is the one that rugby- tackled- kissed- camille- by- hitting -her- boy :)
oh ya did i mention?
this was actually the house of my high school teacher,
Miss Bell!
She used to teach English.
she was like why in mmu never go overseas all ah?
meh,
that's another story,
moving on!

see this super duper cute boy?!
mother is a chinese, dad an Australian.
his dad also handsome lah,
but he is the one that has my heart.
lol,
i think he sorta convinced me to get an AngMoh hubby so that i can have cute children like him lah.
haha,
we'll see huh XD

this was the last house for the first day,
the Timur Leste house.
they built a really pretty crib with real grass!
got picture but i lazy to upload now lah.
later if you're lucky :D

last house(2nd house) for day two!
this girl right,
loves attention so much!!!
so she super happy ah we came.
she greeted us with her red glittery party santa hairband.
apparently they went also last year,
and she recognizes them :)

a picture of her just a tad bit shy at frst,leaning into shannon ko2's legs.
so funny lah,
with her hat on,
she's only as tall as shannon's waist :D

trying to fix her hairband hat with feli looking on :)

ivan anneh who carried her to touch her top of the door and giving her a sweet.

mmmm,feed her makan somemore.
she was SOOO happy that night.
everybody was like giving her full attention!

the guys and the little princess for the night.

food really epic :)
fried rice,fried kuay teow, roti john and fruit cakes!

finally,
santa know how to carry a child.
and found a kid that does not burst out crying when he goes closer to them.



after the great food,
we went to the Portugese Settlement!! really pretty!!!
but not all of us went lah.
and so the epic story for the night.
car ran out of fuel.
HAHA!
cheh so bad.
Ivan and Shannon decided not to join us..
so we said our goodbyes,
exchanged greetings and good wishes and were ready to leave for more fun and excitement when,
"knock2 on the window"
shannon : car got no fuel lah,mind helping us buy?
lol
so we bought lah.
and than at first the car couldn't start.
so with their formal clothes and all these guys had to push the car.
should have taken picture lah.
long story short,
they started the car and reached home safely i guess.
while we went on to our next adventure!!
Portugese Settlement!!!!

christmas tree!!

me and feli and joanna's magic that made it look like it was daytime.

at the jetty :)

at first there were only 3 of us...

and then everybody wanted in :)

Julie's biscuits!!

pretty lights!

me and the dancing Santa..

us and the Snowman.

look guys!!
its Rudolph :))

Joanna me and Rudolph!
Check out joanna's pants!! nice right?

oh this pict is here.
haha,guess you ppl are lucky after all.
the Timur Leste's house's crib :)

feli and adrian looking good :)

me!! XD so excited i know :DD

Joanna's magic again.
she really super pro i tell you!

Joshua's pro-ness in taking pictures :D

posing again XD

me and josh and the super important pole between us :)
i was supposed to look emo but yeah.
haha.

Adrian and his hats with lights and joshua with his glowing shirt.

last picture taken by camille.
not sure whether she edited it or effect by her camera but reallyy nice!!!


okla,
i still have a lot more on my mind but i'll save that for another post.
to,
Andrea.Camille.Joshua.Adrian.Ivan.Shannon.Anslem.Brenden(Santa).Andre.
Feli.Joanna.Andriea.

thanks for an awesome pre Christmas celebration!
i had a great time.
May God bless :)

so,
speech day 2010.
funny how this the only year where i'm not going on stage for an award.
besides form 3 i suppose,
but there was no academic award to be earned in form 3.
even i n form 5 i was surprised by the half colors awards i got.
that was a gift from God.

my conclusion in this post is that SPM is the worst of the three Malaysian public exams i've taken.
haha,
exceeded expectations during UPSR.
did as expected during PMR
and fell short of my expectations during SPM?

anyway,
the list of students who got the cemerlang award for SPM has been announced.
congrats to these ppl who scored 9A+'s or more!

HADIAH PELAJAR CEMERLANG SPM 2009

1. AMIRUL AMRI BIN ABD AZIZ

2. BRYAN WEE YAN JUN

3. FATIN DALEELA BINTI ZAHARI

4. IKA HADILAH BINTI RADZRAN

5. MOHAMMAD SUFFIAN BIN HAMZAH

6. MOHD AFIQ WALID BIN HJ. MAHMOOD

7. NADZRIF BIN BIDIN

8. NOR AIMAN KHALIDAH BT AHMAD TARMIZI

9. NURIZZATI BINTI ZAINAL NAZERI

10. NURUL AQASYA BINTI ANIS

11. RADEN MUHAMMAD NORFIQRI BIN R NORAZARI

12. SARA RUZANNA YATIM BINTI SALIM

13. SYAFIAH MAHFUZAH BINTI JOHARI

14. SYAHMI AMMAR BIN MOHD NASIR

15. SYUFIKA NUR FATIN BINTI ISHAK

16. TENGKU FATIN HUWAINA BINTI TENGKU FAROK HUSSIN

17. WAN NADIRA HANIM BINTI MOHAMED ZAIMAN

You guys have made Arisz proud :)

felicia foo, this is for you.

rmmbr the night Amanda and I scolded u at the corridor? then we refused to talk for a month?

yes sis,
i remember.
and it hurt so very bad.
all i could think all the time was,
this is super stupid.
why aren't we talking over a silly thing like this?
BUT HEY!
guess what?
things are okay now.
its better than okay :)
when things are hard,
it seems like tomorrow will never come.
you inspire me sis.
all through those layers around you,
i'm glad you let me through.
remember,
you are a STRONG girl,
with so much to offer to the world.
hold on and push through.
you will make an amazing gynecologist (dunno how to spell)
you are a special individual.
stay you and be strong!
good luck!

the world ain't pretty all the time.
it is ugly twisted and brutal at times.
it is filled with sorrow and bitterness
why let them rule?

look at the other miracles in life. fill your walls and scrapbooks with happy pictures.

spend time with people that mean the world to you,
because they are your world.
love!laugh! sing! hug! be happy! go crazy!
life's too short to be predictable.
live every moment like it's your last..

listen to happy music.
sing along,spread the joy.
tell someone they are special and loved.

remember that at every end of a tunnel,
light awaits.
at every end of a thunderstorm,
a rainbow prevails.
things will be okay,
because He will make sure it does.
Just believe :)

have a wonderful day!

estatic :)

and so today was an awesome day.
it started at about 9.30 in the morning and ended at 12 midnight.
somewhat like a cinderella fairy tale.
minus the pumpkin and mice.

i was happy.
i had a whole day out.
wasted a whole day out.
but it was worth every second.
because i'm with awesome people whom i love.
met new awesome people whom i fell in love with :D


haha,
yeah there was a CUTE violin player,
whom apparently is married T.T
not my luck but ah,
a girl can always dream :)
i'd love to go through it in detail,
but somethings are meant to reside in the heart....

ok fine,that was just an excuse for being lazy to type it out in detail.


but to miss Syazeleen Mustafa,
thanks for making it happen k leen.
it was an awesome awesome day.
tonight i sleep a happy girl :D

oh btw,
i believe there's a plan laid out for you.
only the gps is broken and you have to find your own way.

i'm not entirely sure what that means.
but in the mean time,
i do believe a plan has been laid out for me by my Daddy up there.
Even if the GPS is broken,
He will send me guiding stars :)
and i will keep on looking out for them.

that lecturer was really extremely rude.
surprised me really.
i usually have high regards for educators,
but i guess she just tarnished that reputation.

anyway,

fedrick, lim kuan, daughter,shien lin,liza, brother,reagan, aaron heng, yik wai,jackson.

you guys have prepared well and i couldn't be more proud of all of you when you walked up front,
you guys looked so grown up,
so matured.
although u were very *rudely* interrupted,
you guys already did a great job!
:)
God does things for a reason,
He's just trying to make you stronger people,
enriched with experiences that would make you people more amazing.
it would be worth it,
just wait :)

p/s you guys are the best bunch of people i'd ever dare hope to meet.and im not saying this simply because of the presentation,its from the core of my heart. :) you people just bring friendship to a whole new level :)

pp/s : daughter, i know you would be reading this, you did great! (^^)

ppp/s : im joining your group next time ppl :)

JessicaLeong.SyazeleenMustafa.Daeng Dhamiry.
3 way conversation.
1 wall.
amusing~ :)

guess what?

nadia elena called,
and it made my day :)

not that skyping for almost an hour and the half with my family doesn't help,
but talking to her has been,
refreshing.
i miss her a lot la that girl,
even my other friends could see the difference in the way talked on the phone
*i was downstairs cause lim kuan bought shao pao fr us :) tq mr kuan!*
so yeah,
she has been the one whom i really had NO walls with at all,
the one whom i would let my guard down 100%.
no that my other babes are not amazing as well,
but with her,
its just a little bit different,
and that little bit makes all the difference.
i might gush about her sometime later,
bt fr nw,
back to assignments!

*semangat much :D*

my first aural presentation in MMU,
and i suppose it went pretty well.
My group consisted of me, yee sin, yik wai,fedrick and jackson.
all did their part well and the exhilaration after it was all over was immensely satisfying.
it may just be a small,insignificant presentation,
but in a way it meant a lot.
Being able to convey a message across,
capturing the attention of an entire room :)
i guess i miss speaking and performing onstage.
I have never been much of debater as i am yet to feel secure speaking entirely spontaneously.
I prefer being given some time to arrange my thoughts before speaking.
oh well,
it will be something that i have to learn eventually.
but it was a good presentation,
satisfying :)
way to go team!!

i was looking out of the window,
getting ready for bed when this flash of lightning lit up the whole sky.
At least the bit of sky that i could see through the window.
I've been feeling a little melodramatic for the past week.
I haven't been studying or praying as much as i should.
I just suddenly feel this urge to curl up into a ball and take a break from the world.
lol, drama queen much i know.
I guess i just had a bit too much time spent with people around me.
Too many group discussions and assignments.
I need to take a break from the real world,
and return to mine.
A world where my family reigns,
A world where i talk to Jesus.
A world where i remind myself of my own dreams and hopes.
A world where i blog and write letters to God,
A world where i feel safe,
A world where i have the leisure to reorganize my train of thoughts.
A world with some time for myself :)
I'd love a short break,
a 3 day break.
A good time too as most people would be going back to their hometowns.
When i return,
i'd be re energized and ready to take on the world!

Of friendship, food and laughter :)

Okay,let's rewind back to Friday.
It was quite a day considering we got like "fired" before noon.
Haih,
Simply put,
we were a bunch of unhappy teenagers who were angry and angry and angry.
Okay.
So, we headed back to ixora,
slaved on the essay,
to emerge not so victorious hours later.haha.
Anyway,
hungry and deciding that yee sin would appreciate some home cooked food,
I heated up mummy's curry and mui choi,
fried vege and some eggs,
asked aaron to get 3 packets of white rice..
and voila!
Happy well fed people.:)


At 5,
we went for a swim.
Silly aaron wanted to do this 1 hour endurance thingie.
And we survived!
Yee Sin, Jecklyn and Vivian watched from the side.
Lim Kuan joined us in the water,
While Jian Liang watched from the side.
We laughed and laughed and laughed.
And had a few cramped muscles.
Okay! We'll warm up next time!
*pinkie promise* =)

At 8.30,
we finally headed to MMU corner for dinner.
Those who swam had wobbly legs and rumbling tummy's..
lembik edi lar..
We went there,
Ordered food, and before mine came,
its started to pour -__-
haha
its okay,
I still ate in the end. =)

At 10.30,
I laid my head on my pillow,
ready to go to sleep.
*phone vibrates*
yee sin : *Jessica,can I come to your room for a while?*
*huh? Come to my room for what?*
* I can't seem to iron my shirt.i need help*
LOL. Seems like God has other plans for me rather than just being lazy on my bed =D

At 11.00,
I was at Yee Sin's room.
18^TH Floor yaw!!
view was awesomely breathtaking.
So, I helped her iron her shirt,
which was rubber based and nearly impossible to be wrinkle free,
managed it in the end!
for her to put t on and make it crumpled all over again ==
HAHA!
and than gave comments on her pants and makeup and what not.
I was ready to go down and than!
*OMG JECKLYN'S LEAVING! SHE DECIDED TO GO FOR MATRIX*
(0.0)

At 12 am,
we headed downstairs and had a short chat with Jecklyn,
planning an extremely last minute farewell,
and than!
*yee sin's phone vibrates*
Lim Kuan * I'm having trouble with the iron*
And thus my first experience of ironing in open air.
haha XD

Saturday,10 am.
phone vibrates ,text message from yee sin
* can you come down to ixora food court for a while?*
when I reached there,
she told me that most probably those stuck in A Famosa won't be able to come back.
and that me and Aaron Mark are the only 2 ppl available to make the party work.

At 2,
I met up with aaron mark and we decided to at least get Jecklyn a gift first.
And so we walked down and got her gift.
As wee passed by a grocery store,
I just had this urge to go in.
We were still deciding where to hold the celebration and ting!
We saw spaghetti!
I tried and error one serving for Aaron to try,
pass! =D

At 3.30,
we had another problem to solve.
Lim Kuan, Aaron Heng and Jian Liang were still stuck in A famosa.
Without them,the party wouldn't be too meaningful.
How to get them back?!
Thus,
Yee Sin and Aaron Mark got a car,
drove there using the GPRS,
and got them back in time.

At 7.30,
Aaron Mark called.
he thinks that only spaghetti wouldn't be enough.
We rushed down to the grocery store and bought 2 packs of cocktail sausages.
I just boiled it,no time la!

At about 8.30,
I arrived downstairs.
They were happy with the food.
Thank God J

cause you gave me wings to fly,
catch me if i fall.. =]

i wanna do more than just fly..
i'd soar
i'd see all that life has to offer.
i want to soak in the joys and pull through the bitterness of it all.
somehow k leen,
your wings came at the perfect timing!

i had an awesome weekend =D
i watched Knight and Day with the family =)
i went out with two people that i miss a lot!
i got a digi number,which means i gt to save a lot.
And i'm happy=)

meeting you this time is different from the last.
i enjoyed your company
and i think,
i'm gonna miss you.

Take care =)

you know,
the sun will always shine in the end.
the pretty rainbow will be out.
have faith sister,
it will be okay soon!

most of my friends are starting or have already started college.
they are all fantastic people.
smart brilliant and beautiful beings.
they have already obtained their scholarships and have their whole lives ahead of them.
To whoever who reads this,
Please pray for them okay?
I feel slightly left behind
but that is not a valid reason for me,
not to be there for them 100%.
good luck people!!

The image of *** does not matter as much as my opinion of you. I feel nothing but respect for your truthfulness and honestly I am shocked that those lousy scholarship bodies did not see everything I see in you.

reading this always makes me smile.

so i decided to put it here.

to remember there is still hope.

that i still have to fight.

to go on.

i still have a lot to prove.

i guess what you say does have an impact of me,because i respect you.you deserve it.