well, contract was..

okay? lol.

funny, i don't really have a word to describe it.

wasn't that bad. 

wasn't my best paper either.

so i guess,

it would be very much in line to say ThankYou Jesus!

and BYE BYE CONTRACT!

lol,

but it really knocked me out tho.

slept for three hours straight, siao.

haha, oh well.

consti tomorrow.

exam week, please please please be good.

than it would be plans :D

happy plans!

what a difference 5 mins make.

5 mins.

and the spot for the subject is no longer there.

hmm.

worry.

that is what my heart is filled with right now.

hmm.

stress.

hurm.

Dear Lord,

please.

please.

please let it be okay.

please.

my faith is shaky.

please.

Amen.

害怕，

会有什么用呢？

现在，

只要勇敢的面推 这一场 仗就可以了啦。

so,

tomorrow will be my first ever debate tournament.

i can feel those butterflies in my stomach =S

all i wanna do is to give it my best,

and emerge out of it wiser.

ah,the fear of the unknown.

.

.

.

on a lighter note,

the drama team went out for our long over due lunch together.

it was good to be out with them again,

just eating and laughing with no worries.

and!

we had a great photo session.

here are a few of my favs.

edited by adrianleeyungkhin of course :)

legs and pretty lighting :)

friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient,

it about being there when it's not.

sometimes,we just need to look away from the ugly and savor the beauty of life.

it's okay to be who we Asians really are ;)

no matter how sad you are, just remember happiness is not far away ;)

the smiles, the surprises, the sad moments and moments that leave you clueless,

that's what life is made of.

signing off ppl,

do pray for me!

have a great weekend

xx

today's debate practice has been rewarding.

it's one step closer to being better,

and one step away form being bad at it.

i managed a 4 and the half minutes speech on rebuttals and one point alone.

and i wasn't through with my point.

although BC said that it was a time management problem (which it was)

it felt good to be short of time instead of being in excess of it :D

baby steps jess,baby steps. :)

on another note,

i'm just exhausted.

so...

there's an arisz reunion this weekend.

many can't make it =(

and i do have a contracts test on monday.

dunno whats up with me but have been slacking a lot lately.

i'm kinda excited yet freaked out by the fact that there's debate tomorrow night.

oh well,

do one thing a day that scares you.

i guess that's the thing i have to do. :)

oh well,

that is all i guess.

among other things.

hey,

click on the adverts will ya?

thx,

much love.

mixed

oh well,

there was my first debate.

it was terrible i suppose.

I knew close to nothing about the motion.

I was the whip so i had nothing prepared before hand.

And when everyone started speaking,

I did not know what were the points i was supposed to argue.

And even after i identified them, i did not know how to argue it.

.

.

.

but on the other hand,

i was proud that i tried.

Spence told me i spoke for 5 minutes.

haha!

seniors were encouraging,

i just need to have faith and keep going.

if it's not hard,

the rewards won't be good.

It's about time i get out of my comfort zone.

growth is painful but necessary.

.

.

.

Presentation tomorrow,

Midterms on thursday and friday.

Assignments lined up.

God bless me.

midterm was like a bullet train.
time management problem i suppose ><
oh well,
no to concentrate on legal method assignment,
consti and contract,
and malaysian studies.
and to try not to scratch my finger again.
aiyo.
and to immerse myself in the news!
the reports on the BERSIH rally provides me with endless amusement.
Since it prevented me from going home,
mind as well enjoy the humor from.
dinner thn law lib!
shall update soon :)

Hello people.
I apologize for being MIA for such a long span of time.
Lack of inspiration has placed me on a writer's block mode.
Anyway,
i am now officially a first year DEGREE student!
*claps claps claps*
and whoever who said the first year is the honeymoon year is either
a) a crazy nutcase genius
b) a crazy nutcase that does not care about the future
c) has enough money to last the a lifetime.
My Lord,
it is NOT easy at all.
The sight of the thickness of my books (and the pricing)
and the number of those thick books is enough to make alarms bang crazily in my brain and give me palpitations and make me hyperventilate.
okay fine, that may be a teeny weeny bit exaggerated,
but seriously.
degree is so NOT a piece of cake.
The assignments are scary.
The amount of things that i realize i do not know is also scary.
Meh.
I have midterms in two weeks and i feel like the semester barely started.
haha.
my favourite subject for now has got to be constitutional law.
i have an awesome-oh-so-knowledgeable lecturer which makes you wanna learn more instead of fleeing to the other end of the world when you open a consti text book.
he;s cool like that.
.
.
.
on a different note,
i joined DEBATE!
for REAL!
i really hope i can make it for real this time.
I am not aiming to be a super world debater or even national debater for that matter.
it would be nice if i can make it on to the team,
but what's more important is that i learn to be comfortable with myself expressing my views and opinions.
and of course,
to have a view and an opinion.
to achieve that i have to start to be this religious news reader and an avid reader of all those "grown up" books.
woah.
imagine me saying that.
the only books i used to read were textbooks and story books.
the trainer BC was very motivational that night.
he taught me that believing in myself is vital.
it is necessary,
like the air we breathe.
i can be very honest,
debate spooks me out.
cause in high school,
i was always surrounded by these awesome debaters like Sara and Nadia.
and i always felt as if i'd never be at par with them.
but what BC said made me realize that i actually want to be heard.
i just never realized that.
and it also made me realize that my opinion matters.
cause no other person knows what i feel,
or how i think.
even if they do,
they cannot express it the exact way i would.
the message may be conveyed,
but never the way it would have if i made the speech personally.
i matter,
and it's okay to matter.
and it's okay to be scared and
it's okay to want to overcome the fear.
it's okay to want to learn.
it's okay.
and the knowledge of that is empowering and uplifting and inspiring and simply enlightening.
.
.
.
.
this semester feels different.
i have this brave and daring streak in me.
i have no idea where it came from,
but the enthusiasm to participate has returned.
and the fear of embarrassing myself has diminished to a manageable level.
this feels good.
it feel like the anticipation and butterflies before an orchestra performance.
and that feeling is beautiful.
maybe my ego is cushioned by a good week this week,
but its good.
and i hope to make it last.
this spark,
it needs to last.
i realized that being raised as a Malaysian,
i tend to be too dependable.
that;s how we are.
We depend on others to make us happy.
This semester it is the realization that choosing to do what i want to do is a good thing to depend on.
the dependancy on self sufficiency.
haha,
i wonder if that makes any sense at all.
.
.
.
law outing tomorrow,
retiring early for the night.
xx

Jasmine's Father

Tonight is the first night of "freedom".
No rushed dinners.
No rushed baths.
No running to Astana for practices.
No drawing props lists.
No script writing or memorizing
No migrations, no props repairing, no twists, no grammar checks.
Nothing.
Empty.
Hollow.
And then i realize,
i miss my team.

I miss each and every one of you.
I miss the laughter.
I miss the crazy waiting.
I miss listening to the guys' random crap shitting.
I miss listening for grammar mistakes,
and laughing at our new vocabulary.
"speaken",
"miating",
" terriblerer",
"listen to your father explain"
echoes in my mind all the time.
I miss going out on trips to buys props,
and running round and round to look for the stuff needed.
Simply put,
i miss the presence of each and every one of you around me.

We were once strangers with different paths and directions,

now,
i can't imagine what it'll be like without you people around.

Without Adrian
and his directing, camera and disallowing Shawn to sleep.
You were the glue that held us together when we were falling apart.



Without Esin
and her "i'm hungry" and commitment towards her character.
You proved that you were the best actress despite everything that the judges said.


Without Heah
and his super "geng" designing skills,
You showed us that the prettiest of things are self made.

Without Shawn
and his "My Lord" when being ignored and mosquito killing sessions,
You gave us the spark of random laughter when we needed it.


Without Heng
and his lateness and never-ending jumping on cement floors.
You thought us how to be patient.


Without Kuan
and his red props bag and speakers,
You showed us that being who you really are is the best acting skill needed.



Without WenXue
and her kesian role of being abused and crying from the start till the end,
You showed us real commitment can bring wonders.

We have come a long way.
The Jasmine's Father's crew has come a long way.
Remember our first meeting?
It was so formal and awkward.
Remember our first ever practice?
We did not even have proper names for the characters yet.
Remember our first ever performance?
We thought it was our last.
I am glad that i had you,

every one of you,

every step of the way.
with one less member,
we would not have made it to the end.
Props team included =)



Finally,
19th April 2011.
The night which made it all worth it.

That performance was the best that our team has ever shown.
The applause and cheers from the audience filled me with pride.

We did it,
we finally did it.
And guess what?
We nailed it.

In my eyes and in my heart,
we were the champions for the night,
because we exceeded our own expectations and limits.
Our best prize?
It wasn't the 500 bucks.
It wasn't the best actress or the best supporting actor awards (although those two awards were pretty damn awesome too XD)
It was the fact that for that moment in time,
we knew deep in our hearts that nothing,
nothing can ever take what we have away from us.
ever.



It has been an amazing month with you people.
One hell of an awesome month.
It is hard to believe that a month earlier,
all this did not exist.
Now, i can offhandedly recite what your preference for food.



So my dearest team,
you are a miracle sent to me this semester.
Angels without wings and saints without halos.
Brothers and sisters that God forgot to give me.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Smile because this is not the end of the story,
Smile because it is merely the beginning of a new chapter of our friendship.
Here's to the people that made my final semester of foundation a freaking awesome one.
cheers!



Lotsa love and care,
Christine =)


p/s : all the pretty photos are edited by adrianleeyungkhin.

i was asked this question :
"how do you think your team did for the drama?"


sincerely
i think we're seriously awesome in a kick ass kind of way.
that's what i think.
we struggled hard against all odds.
we pushed through the insane lethargic periods.
although there were times where the word "i give up" flashed across all of our minds,
i still think we're awesome.
not because we made it to the finals.
not that the other teams aren't terribly good.
not because i feel like boasting about us.
its just because we are who we are,
and we're good at being who we are.

to do list updated.

1) edit script

2) Academic Essay

3) Impromptu Speech

4) Islamic Group Work

5) Islamic Presentation

6) Law and Society Groupwork

7) Law and Society Presentation

8) Politics and Governance Groupwork

9) Muet speaking test on the 11th of April

10) Business final presentation

this is a trying Semester.

i shall give it all up to You.

i survived.

yes i did!

it was an insane week.

it was simply a week that pushed me to the limit.

like a spring pulled to the very end.

i thought i would have died.

okay,

so i had my business project and preliminary rounds for drama fest this week.

just thinking about it makes me tired enough to crawl back into bed.

reached home at 8.30 pm last friday.

slept at 10.

woke up early saturday morning, went for mom's colleague's farewell, rushed to buy business stuff and looked for "brides maid's" dress for drama.

reached home at 7, dinner and than discussed pricing with the mom till 11.

took a bath and write the script till 3 am.

woke up at 5 am to go to church.

took the 8.30 am bus back to malacca.

heah,shelly and esin picked me and adrian up at 11.

went for lunch and then went on a search for ideas for bridal gowns.

reached campus at about 2 and dicussed till 4.

went straight for business meeting to test our food (it was kinda terrible disaster XD)

after business meeting, discussed further with esin and kuan.

than we went for dinner, and discussed and practised till about 1.

woke up at 4 the next day to prepare for business.

went to the venue at 7 to secure place and electricity.

the team came at 8.30.

we set u and sold noodles.

ice cream came at 10.45.

started business and ended about 3pm.

went for class.

cleaned up the place after class.

took a bath and rushed for practise and props.

discussed and practised until about 1.

went up and collapsed in bed at around 1.30am ( heah esin heng kuan and shelly discussed about dress)

woke up at 4 to redo script as miss chin wanted a copy of it.

started business at 8.

straight to class

*our ice cream finished selling!*

went to see miss lau

then i went for class again.

after class went to buy props with shawn and adrian.

crazy rounds in jusco and kamdar and mydin.

fell asleep on the way back.

apparently adrian and shawn made fun of me, i really din realize @@

went back to campus for practise.

after practising scene one, went back to take a bath cos esin thought i looked lost.

took esin's laptop n printed out newest scripts.

continued practise and discussion and DESIGN OF THE WEDDING GOWN!

the rest went back at 3.

shelly and esin slept at 3.30 am.

me and heah continued editing the script until 5 am.

than we went back.

got up at 8 to take ladder from fedrick.

went to take car keys from shawn.

drove limkuan and esin to adrian's hse to wipe his fans.

drove back to take scripts and let esin and kuan buy breakfast.

went back to adrian's hse fr "practise" but me and esin fell asleep on the couch while waiting.

drove straight to campus.

went to see miss chin at 1.

went out to buy props at about 3-5.30

miss chin asked us to see her immediately.

saw her,

went back for a quick bath and dinner and went back for practise.

we started our first proper practise at 12am as we rushed to finish up the props.

and that practise was horrible.

and so we continued to practise until 6 am.

we had one hour of sleep in campus from 3.30-4.30.

we just practised and practised.

forced myself up for class in the morning,

kept on practising from 11 until 6.

we made up and got ready for our performance at 7.

7-7.30 was our presentation.

took pictures, went back to cean up and went for dinner.

reached restaurant at 10pm.

after that every one was reluctant to go home,

decided to go to the beach.

everyone ended sleeping in the car (except d drivers of course)

woke up at 9 the next day.

met up with heah at 10 to go to central.

picked adrian up and went to jonker instead to get some stuff.

had early breakfast,took pictures, had cendol and finally headed home.

next ticket to klang was at 4.30,

so i followed the gentlemen back to kl and took a train home.

IT WAS HORRIBLE.(the train i mean)

reached home around 6 plus,7.

ate dinner,slept at 8.

woke up at 9.

first night of long sleep.

breakfast

wanted to got to the library to get info for academic essay.

klang and shah alam library not open.

last minute decision to go to kl national library.

left home 11.30,reached library 1.30pm.

was there till about 5.45.

i never knew it was tht hard to find books ==

reached home around 7-ish.

went to aunty's hse fr dinner,

ended up sleeping there for one hour?

and i m here now typing this.

need sleep.

can't form proper sentences anymore.

just wanted to write this so that one day when i read this again,

i'd know that i've gone through crazy, and survived.

night.

p/s : i have an awesome team and friends

pp/s : my time will come :)

and once again, He tells me nothing is impossible :) thank you Jesus, please help me through the next two days.

and once again, He tells me nothing is impossible :) thank you Jesus, please help me through the next two days.

miracles.

its a miracle tht i'm typing this from home.

i did not have a bus ticket yesterday but the driver helped me out.

its a miracle our fan cleaning services reached the amount we have now.

i thought it would be far less.

its a miracle what shelly told me yesterday.

a week ago i was worried sick about it.

its a miracle that our drama story line was approved,

the lecturer has crazy expectations.

nothing in this world is easy.

yet nothing is impossible.

sometimes it feel likes the ray of sun is never going to shine upon you.

that is when you must sit down in the darkness,

and pray.

i know some of you must be sick and tired of seeing me type about prayers and Jesus and about how awesome He is.

Well,

He is.

Praying was the only thing that helped me this far through semester 3.

Me telling the world about His greatness is the least possible thing i can do.

PRAY.

believe.

and GIVE THANKS.

to the members of my drama and business group,

if you are reading this,

PLEASE STAY HEALTHY AND WELL.

we will survive.

" a child know that he has the right to be right, an adult knows that he has the right to be wrong too"

we are ony human.

we can't be perfect all the time.

If we are fearless all the time, how would we know that He is a Provider?

If we are happy all the time, how would we know that He is a Comforter?

If we don't face obstacles, how would we know that He is a Deliverer?

let's just pray that everything would be fine.

work hard,

and pray.

my desktop background for now.

let's hope for the best and be prepared for the worst.

love,

Miss Jesslyn

yesterday was like a dream come true.

it was simply magical. :)

i had my drama presentation yesterday.

My group went in with zero expectations.

We just wanted to have fun and do our best,

just to satisfy ourselves and make sure our efforts did not go to waste.

After the endless practices,

repeating the same lines,

doing and redoing the props,

a bit of tears and too much laughter,

a lot of hard work and also slacking, we did it yesterday.

and when teacher commented i felt as if i went to the moon and came back :)

i will write a super detailed post on this later,

its a memory i never want to forget.

As for now,

thank you so very much to,

Boss (Adrian Lee)

Father ( Heah Chee An)

Mother ( Yap Wen Xue)

Miss Jasmine ( Chong Yee Sin)

Mr Charles ( Lim Kuan)

Mr Sam ( Aaron Heng)

it was a pleasure working with you guys.

If we have the chance to perform again,

let's rock the stage!

cheers.

xx

it will be a crazy two weeks,

i'll really need your prayers.

thx.

cheers!