1 day short of 9 months

So I decided to blog again, after so long. Cause i'm waiting for my flight back to subang, then i'll be off to dinner with Sheryl and BC.

I've had dinner with them tonnes of times before, and more often than not, third-wheeling.

But that has not happened in a long time now. 

There's this strange comfort in knowing that you have a ready plus one to go with you to stuff.

Even when that person is busy, and has to attend to some other obligations, it is such a comfort to know that if he could, he would have.

Maybe this is a true reflection of who I am as a person. I like comfort, I crave security.

Boy, do I crave security.

And security has been something that this person has been able to give me in abundance.
I am so, so, so very blessed. Blessed that He has given me the person who is such a comfortable fit.

So,

To the person who mimics my pouts to snap me out of it;
To the person who asks me to Uber anyway, and tells me he'll share the costs,
To the person who lets me eat the last piece of sushi/cake/fried chicken/wantan etc,
To the person who hugs me instead of yelling at me when I throw tantrums,
To the person who tries to teach to not be afraid of telling him how I really feel,
To the person who has this funny little dance,
To the person who is able to be comfortable with my family, and vice versa,
To the person who praises God with pride,
To the person who the person who has been my steady, my calm and my adrenaline,
Happy 9 months, you amazing person!

(not so) little drummer boy

So,

this happened.

and I am so thankful,

to be so loved,

by such a wonderful human being.

and all it took

was a simple wish for my heart to go into a tailspin again.

I'm not sure if I can't or won't.

The truth remains that I'm not letting go.

Do you think we can begin again?

"Saw you there and I thought oh my god
Look at that face, you look like my next mistake"

Let's work that carrot patch again, hao ma?

“I have something I need to tell you," he says. I run my fingers along the tendons in his hands and look back at him. "I might be in love with you." He smiles a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you, though."

"That's sensible of you," I say, smiling too. "We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something."

I feel his laughter against my side, his nose sliding along my jaw, his lips pressing my ear.

"Maybe I'm already sure," he says, "and I just don't want to frighten you."

I laugh a little. "Then you should know better."

"Fine," he says. "Then I love you.”

-Veronica Roth (Divergent)

My current obsession.

Doesn't hurt that the actor is hot, and finally makes the British accent appealing to me :)

Results are out!

Hehe,and once again I thank the Lord!

One more lap and uni life is going to be over.

Crazy how quickly time passes by.

Come CNY, i'll be done with school and will venture into the working world soon after!

Excited and afraid at the same time.

But currently,

I am just mad sleepy T.T

Results are

going to be released today. 

omg. omg omg.

gahhhhhh

last year's results were good but was accompanied by shitty news a few days after.

sooooo

since I have been a good girl this year,

can it be good new accompanied by more good news? :)

The Fault Brutus,

...is not in our stars, but in us.
And the sooner we realize that we are not perfect, the better.
I am exhausted, and I don't even know why @@
All I have been doing is lazing around, eating, watching videos and doing minimal work.
At this point, one semester away from graduation, I am suddenly afraid of what the future holds.
It seems to be a plunge into an unknown future.
Another leap of faith.
The thing about leaps of faith are that they require alot of courage.
And persistence.
And you need to have that many many times.
People seem to think that it takes courage to take only the first step.
I think it takes even of courage to continue on the path you've set foot on.
Because really, how do you know when to continue struggling or to give up?
How do you know whether something is supposed to feel this easy or this hard?
People often say that it will get better and easier with time.
Geez, slow clap genius.
But does that mean I am getting better at it? Or that I'm so immune I don't feel the pain anymore?
How long? How much harder will this get? How worth it will it be?
Waseh just realized how gloomy this is sounding on a blazing hot day lol

Meet up with Sheri, BC and Sarah last week was so much fun.
As was the catch up session with Mark.
Gonna have Shin's birthday dinner tomorrow night.
I'm looking forward to amazing company and endless laughter and gossip sessions.

On a separate note, I think i'm ready now to try again.
To learn from the past, and apply whatever I have learnt in the upcoming one.
Haha, sounds like I just went for an internship for that.
But seriously, why not right?
I am not going to be young forever.
Stay blessed people!
And don't let the October-blues keep you down :)